2 decades and 2 years

I am officially another notch away from my teen years. Really I guess the teen years would be my most memorable ones yet. Never had any ideas on how I handled those dramas, laughs and pains by being me. Everyone has a different version of themselves.

wish I had my actual birthday cake on that day

After 2 decades and 2 years in the business of my life, I only noticed slow changes though. Physically I am the same as ten years ago, mentally I have been a slacker to my own thinking, spiritually low in my practices but have strong faith on the Lord, socially has increased skills in dealing with strangers, and emotionally stable as of now that is. Really I should thank myself for that I have become a person that my parents aren’t a shame of. I do have some secrets that they have no idea with. And yeah I’m still chained to them like a goat, financially.

spending Eat All You Can at Zao, Guadalupe

My parents were kinda generous on my natal day. They had given me a little money to spend on my own. So I decided to treat with my most lovable there is in the mortal world; food. Food has never disappointed me. My cousins thought about the idea so I spend a thousand on that one. Only half a thousand left. That was suppose to be my gift like some pair of shoes perhaps yet the day dragged me on spending it with high school friends. Quite ironic, my original close friends in high school aren’t there anymore but still we do have communication. I kinda want to spend my day again with them if I’m to be honest. Yet time let me introduce more on some of my classmates that ended up having to be with them. These guys are quite ok but nothing can replace the closest ones before. Good for them that they were allowed to be in Cebu just to unwind from work, no way in hell am I allowed that kind of unwinding. So there I have no money left for me and they were kinda eager on having this small time reunion, so I wasn’t regretting it.

at Brew's Point and Diva Karaoke

On the same day, bad news went around with my roommates. My cousin got her phone stolen on the jeepney. I was having a hard time mentally accepting it since the moment she told me through a call I thought she was laughing. Yeah I was a meany but really I don’t know how to handle some situations like that, hate being the eldest though. The shit part would be a pain for her. Telling her mom wasn’t an easy task since they have their own issues too. Really I want to butt in and defend on her since her mom is pressing her too hard. Seeing her talking to her mom on the phone and then hang up is kind of a way that she’s punishing her child unfairly. Hearing stuff that she would be transferred to another school or returning home because she broke her trust. I don’t get it, she should be thankful that her daughter is ok. Just for one lousy accident, she said some things about that. Really my cousin is not even like me, the one who tells lies on my parents sometimes just to get on my way! She’s a better child with that. I have no idea how my grandmother raised her children but that is just plain awful. Her mom should consider that her child is on the process of learning like that. Yes these words are one sided and I have no idea on what the other party have reasons with. I just want to defend a person who is not guilty about. Plus her mom and my dad are somehow similar but my mom is the one who balances stuff like that on the four of us.

My day turned out fun and with a lesson. Clearly I have 2 pending events that I should spend with people I love. The financial problem would be a pain but it would be worth it.

One thing that amused me earlier on my birthday was that someone greeted me unexpectedly. For years he never greeted me and that goes for me to him as well. It’s no biggy but kinda surprising.