Flashbacks

Ironically speaking, it’s been like a month since I posted some little tidbits of mine…

My last month of 2009 wasn’t that full of good memories, instead death of a love one took charge and nearly well, made me realize that time doesn’t take sides, weather good or bad, it ‘will’ take something or someone from you…

Sitting by the hospital without any good place to rest one’s head or even sit properly. Yep that hospital still gets on my nerves sometimes, even my cousins still blame the doctors or the staff of not attending my grandma properly, thus it became that her death bed was in the ICU room 10.

this is how we stay for the night

The scene sometimes plays in my head like an old family movie… I was there exactly the one who took charge during my turn to look after my grandma. It was like plain old same night, except that my grandma had her conscious level dropped to three, it was so fast… yesterday she was still moving and talking but the next day, she can barely move with all the tremors on all her extremities…

I had an eerie feeling when all the doctors and nurses hurried up to save my grandma’s life. Its like I’ve seen this scenario a lot of times but when you knew the person who needs saving, your instinct as a concern family member kicks in even if your already a registered nurse. No matter how you dry your eyes, still all the waterworks came rushing in….

her grave

She died at Dec 21, 2009 at 5:10am. She didn’t even make it to her 77th birthday last Jan 4. Time was really cruel at that time. It was the holidays, yes we first had our Christmas together but a big coffin was sitting in the living room.

burial day

All I could say is that, I knew my grandma as one of the sweetest lady I’ve ever met in my life. Not that because we’re related but that knowing someone like her, I can’t imagine the talks people had on her since when she’s in front of us, she is really really that generous kind of a person.


“Time is coming, let us be Brave”
- the weight of us, Sanders Bohlke