Donna

I never realized that one of my friends from college would pass away so easily. Meet Donna, one of the persons I found interesting. I never quite fully understood her though but I did get the picture years back on sophomore Year College.

Don’t know why but I belonged to a group of the Chinese blooded. I guess we had click for some reasons. I mean their families are rich, I am not; they belong to some well-known titles in the city, where I came from the proud city of the Ormoc and they can speak chinese, whereas my father side does has Chinese blood but we don’t speak any language of some sort. Anyhow we just had this mutual understanding when it comes to making friends, we respects each other’s opinions and get along pretty well. Although at that time they didn’t quite hang around the night, but we were not a bad group either.
 

How can I describe Donna? We were not that super close but we stayed in touch years after she left the college…

With the gang L-R( Carmi, Donna, me, Ivane, Dan, Lara, Ken) way back early days celebrating Carmi's birthday on some ice cream (sorry for the crappy picture)

One thing, she was a generous person materialistically and yes she’s one of the friends you can talk to. She’s a person having sensible conversations. Downside was she was already sick when I met her. I presumed because of her sickness, she was kinda lazy. I respected her for all of that. There were some points about her I don’t get.
 

For once, she somehow hated her parents for doing the stuff for her. She is like all hate about them, but all I can see was that she should be thankful for having them, one of the nicest parents I ever met. Although she was quite emotional when it comes to her love life, I never understood why she was rushing to fall in love. Getting attached to mostly on the same sex. I know I’m being too judgmental about it but her partners were to me doesn’t suit her. If I have vices, well she was the first one who had them. She didn’t influence me though; I was just a witnessed to her actions of rebellion. That 

was what I thought…
 

Until I realized it why she was rushing things. I never quite saw it clearly.

 The last time I saw her was at her wake, such a shame never did the chance to visit on the hospital

I guess when you know that you have a time limit in this life, doesn’t matter to whom you share it with as long you can experience it. I salute her for that, instead of waiting for life to end  she took actions. She wants to be in charge of what is for her. Maybe we saw it as ill acts but I can't blame her for it.

I would agree on what her dad said about her, she’s one tough cookie on the outside. Never admits defeat and all but inside she’s emotionally fragile. I can still remember the times she cried a lot due to some stress of relationships, in school or family. She would somehow stare blankly in space when a song she likes hit her. She loves to sing that I can remember.

She may not see this post but again Donna would be one of those interesting people I’ll never forget.

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Book of Revelations

I noticed that almost movies this year are based on how judgment day will come, or the apocalypse…the end of the world… indeed when will that happen and I dunno if I would be in it…

I guess God has its limit to His loving care since man sometimes wait almost doesn’t listen to HIM, and I am guilty on that part… I have to admit He is so generous but then, what we give Him back well not equal. I know He wants us to be happy but then again mostly on this generation, acts of man hardly pleased Him.

the 4 horsemen by ~scumbugg

The human extinction, still I believe that the process of our annihilation would be kinda slow, the signs are not that obvious but the things man did for the past years, like the wars, not caring of the environment, etc., would have a rebound tendency on us; like Newton’s third law of Motion, a give and take relationship.

It’s so obvious since Mother Nature has yet again unleashed her wrath for how many times already. Whether land, air or water, man will have to face it. Does this mean that on that frightful time will only man change his ways? That’s what the movie, The Day the World Stood Still, pointed out in the first place. I just hope that change would be permanent I mean they didn’t get the whole news anyway… but that’s a movie.

wrath of mother nature by *Srboraa

The slow process or it could be what revelations had written in the bible… The coming of horsemen and all the sins will be damned in the world. Some people do interpret the writings in the revelations as somewhat happening in reality right now… just like what I said about the slow process thingy.

I saw the clip on History channel one time, talking about what were the signs of the end of the world. It was pretty convincing, I’m trying to find a video about it on the net so that you could see the whole thing.

One point I remember on the clip was that water would turn into blood, in reality they prefer the red tide as one that stains the whole creatures of the sea dead, leaving it stain with blood. Kinda creepy isn’t it…

CLICK HERE FOR THE WHOLE CLIP

Movies do give you idea on your faith… I know there would no such hero to rescue the human race since that’s what the Creator wants to happen, but if we could change just as now, maybe that time would be so so far from happening, I wouldn’t be on the face of the earth rather be a helping hand to my race (yes I am a coward and no hero! Ha!)

Ironic Alert!
I'm not a religious kind of a person but after seeing the clips, man was I guilty for everything!

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Flashbacks

Ironically speaking, it’s been like a month since I posted some little tidbits of mine…

My last month of 2009 wasn’t that full of good memories, instead death of a love one took charge and nearly well, made me realize that time doesn’t take sides, weather good or bad, it ‘will’ take something or someone from you…

Sitting by the hospital without any good place to rest one’s head or even sit properly. Yep that hospital still gets on my nerves sometimes, even my cousins still blame the doctors or the staff of not attending my grandma properly, thus it became that her death bed was in the ICU room 10.

this is how we stay for the night

The scene sometimes plays in my head like an old family movie… I was there exactly the one who took charge during my turn to look after my grandma. It was like plain old same night, except that my grandma had her conscious level dropped to three, it was so fast… yesterday she was still moving and talking but the next day, she can barely move with all the tremors on all her extremities…

I had an eerie feeling when all the doctors and nurses hurried up to save my grandma’s life. Its like I’ve seen this scenario a lot of times but when you knew the person who needs saving, your instinct as a concern family member kicks in even if your already a registered nurse. No matter how you dry your eyes, still all the waterworks came rushing in….

her grave

She died at Dec 21, 2009 at 5:10am. She didn’t even make it to her 77th birthday last Jan 4. Time was really cruel at that time. It was the holidays, yes we first had our Christmas together but a big coffin was sitting in the living room.

burial day

All I could say is that, I knew my grandma as one of the sweetest lady I’ve ever met in my life. Not that because we’re related but that knowing someone like her, I can’t imagine the talks people had on her since when she’s in front of us, she is really really that generous kind of a person.


“Time is coming, let us be Brave”
- the weight of us, Sanders Bohlke

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