I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
Yeah...
Yeah...
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
Yeah...
Yeah...
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...
the song above is so wonderful that it haunts me everytime i think of him... if you read the previous post,you know what i mean... for almost 4 freaking years i've been daydreaming whole my life that someone will somehow look at me as the way i look at him...
i did survive for 4 years of bearing that ill truth..i even think og myselfas a crzy bitch who wouldn'teven get the chance to say something to that guy well eventually it did but not in a kind way...
it was my fault actually for spitting it out so suddenly and wel made evrybody including him to be shock... i'm not that intresting when it comes to showing emotions since basicaly i'm not... the downside of it was that i was drunk saying it... like my head was poisoned with damn alcohol that i couldn't even control myself... controlling for the piles of emotions being stuck...
afetr that evyrthing changed eventually after that and well it somehow went to worst scenarios... he won't talk to me, even go near me.. he even walks away everytime i'm there... it did get on my nerves because of that but what the heck i reminded myslef agen that it was my fault for spitting something so private... or was it?
honestly, when no one is looking i can feel that his eyes are kinda sad... not that he is in a depressed sort of way but sadness because of being alone... you know whta i mean? when he sits there be his friends, kahit na all what they were saying were things that were fun but when it is all over, there eyes says it like that..maybe i'm mental or somthing but inoticed this twice already... i know he doesn't need rescuing but i really want to help him jud, that is why my multiply status is entitled 'wanna be there for you but how?'... but i guess someone did alreafdy helped him...
its been a week since i herd the news about them.. but nothing happened dramatically... i even said that maybe i did got my answer if what i felt was something stupid or not...
guess agen..
here i am typing this stupid entry so that to make me feel better.... for cyring out loud i'm even crying like the keybord is full of tissue papers... god i cant beleive it... i didn't see this one coming... who should i to blame? them? well i saw tham again thrice today... it made me irritated but the last time which i saw them well di ko nakaya so ran outside the room and went to the cr.. trying agen to fight back the tears as in nearly my eyes started to water literally... that one hit me big time...
as for the people, they are no help... i mean the drinking session only made it worst, my classmates keep on asking if how was i doing or calls me when the couple are around... myabe i'm just feed up! that now i'm so sad, my self-esteem like went down... hai!
and the song agen from above keeps playing on my head especially the part:
and my least favorite coz these lines hit me the most now:
i did survive for 4 years of bearing that ill truth..i even think og myselfas a crzy bitch who wouldn'teven get the chance to say something to that guy well eventually it did but not in a kind way...
it was my fault actually for spitting it out so suddenly and wel made evrybody including him to be shock... i'm not that intresting when it comes to showing emotions since basicaly i'm not... the downside of it was that i was drunk saying it... like my head was poisoned with damn alcohol that i couldn't even control myself... controlling for the piles of emotions being stuck...
afetr that evyrthing changed eventually after that and well it somehow went to worst scenarios... he won't talk to me, even go near me.. he even walks away everytime i'm there... it did get on my nerves because of that but what the heck i reminded myslef agen that it was my fault for spitting something so private... or was it?
honestly, when no one is looking i can feel that his eyes are kinda sad... not that he is in a depressed sort of way but sadness because of being alone... you know whta i mean? when he sits there be his friends, kahit na all what they were saying were things that were fun but when it is all over, there eyes says it like that..maybe i'm mental or somthing but inoticed this twice already... i know he doesn't need rescuing but i really want to help him jud, that is why my multiply status is entitled 'wanna be there for you but how?'... but i guess someone did alreafdy helped him...
its been a week since i herd the news about them.. but nothing happened dramatically... i even said that maybe i did got my answer if what i felt was something stupid or not...
guess agen..
here i am typing this stupid entry so that to make me feel better.... for cyring out loud i'm even crying like the keybord is full of tissue papers... god i cant beleive it... i didn't see this one coming... who should i to blame? them? well i saw tham again thrice today... it made me irritated but the last time which i saw them well di ko nakaya so ran outside the room and went to the cr.. trying agen to fight back the tears as in nearly my eyes started to water literally... that one hit me big time...
as for the people, they are no help... i mean the drinking session only made it worst, my classmates keep on asking if how was i doing or calls me when the couple are around... myabe i'm just feed up! that now i'm so sad, my self-esteem like went down... hai!
and the song agen from above keeps playing on my head especially the part:
I've been watching your world from afar, I've been trying to be where you are, And I've been secretly falling apart,
and my least favorite coz these lines hit me the most now:
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first, Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes, And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
i feel so shitty na jud... hai my eyes are so puffy red,i'm sniffing my snot out coz that i'm really fuckin hurt as in deep... the ironic thing is that no one knows even for him that i'm like this today... i want him to be happy but i can't really hid myself that i'm like shitty... it is so nice to give him a big sign stating "man you are one hell of a blind guy"
u really like himm..
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