the resolution.... laughing!

finding the day funny oh so funny...

well i maybe looked like a nanny or someone who didn't have enough sleep yesterday but it all seemed so funny... i just laughed about it even if my hands were shaking with fear or nervousness, yet cracking a smirk was a relief...maybe this is my resolution? Resolution on finding the answers to my life...

the research thing was a pain in the ass again, no one even cared sheesh i repeat no one even dare to receive that stupid manuscript of ours... so i went like a a bazooka exploding everywhere in front of the vhire... felt all eyes on me but what the hell... i realyl don't care i mean it was defintely my last straw... even fedz didn't dare to blink or smile at me...i was so pissed of i even cursed all the foul languages i know.. talk about being innocent.. but when it was over.... guess what i just laughed...


i laugh about for no exact reasons i guess..

>>i laugh about how my life was well challenging...
>>i laugh about how the way people think and do stupid things juzt to be noticed
>>i laugh about how the craziness my head gets trying tofigure out whats on my face why people try to blurt about it
>>i laugh about how my bangs get in the way on my eyes, yet there perfect to shield my watery eyes
>>i laugh about how people tend to act so foolishly to you but to them its a way of expressing ones mind (we're not pefect)
>>i laugh about how my parents love me so much even if their eldest daughter is so addicted to spend spend and spend some more on food and i guess clothes

... oh yeah talk about clothes, its weird i mean i was never a fashion faux pas or watsoever before... i've been into online shopping like in junior college and i guess i kinda liked it. i was kinda sad since my closet before was well empty..empty in a sense that only a pair of good jeans and some shirt that well i overgrown them... hahaha so i did shop here, shop there and wait i couldn't stop.. so my allowance always go to the drains every week... savings? well i did manage to but clothes hehe and my mom usually tells me what "poor girl" am i, guess again i think my curse of life is changed hehe, good or bad i don't care...

and oh! last thing i laugh about it was that i caught them again in the other room.. when i opened the door the first thing i saw was them with eyes open and focused on me... confused, so i just smiled turned away and closed the door haha.... the surprise thing was that... no tears baby!

seriously,no tear not a single one, a smile was the awkward thing i did haaahah even while typing this i seemd can't get over the fact that i guess he was guilty... guilty? what was he guilty about... its not that we were a couple before right?! i wish lolz but there was something or maybe i'm just assuming things in my head while thinking of a very good reason on what was that stare for... hmmmm...

guess i'm cured! kudos to me hhahaha

i just wish people would stop talking about me and well start talking about them instead without me being played as a broken hearted girl.... and well enough stop talking also on what my plans for the weekends or ... almost every weekend i go out, its my way of relieving my stress.. my resolution!

my parents are coming over this weekend and i really miss this so much... i never did to have the chance to spend with them during the nov holidays or attending my cousin's wedding because of that stupid-good-for-nothing re-oral defense we had last saturday...

well that's all i feel like typing about dunno if i had readers in my blog, maybe one heheh and she's the one always commenting hahah i bet she's smiling right while she read this part of my post hahahha

twilight the movie is coming i hope that edward fellow won't disappoint me...