2009!

Its the new year! and wew its been a while since a post some thoughts to this blog, i still don't have a great idea to write about. Since its the new year, i think i should well randomize my thoughts first for the last 12 months of breathing and keeping up to finding these answers to life

For starters, i'm just a plain person with large imaginations...

i don't know myself that well yet but through passing the 2008, clues had given me that what my life had offered me...

i never knew i was a

clean freak (maybe because of the course)

stalker to my own dreams (yup and that includes my so called lov

e of my life *i guess)

party girl or popper (college stud by day, flightless vampire at night)

a fuckin wanabe (maybe because i like to pamper myself a lot, i mean a lot!)

black lamb/sheep (i guess i'm the naughty child, disobedience has become my alliby)

ugly green eyed monster (truely! if killing is illegal my hands can do nasty... make it gruesome stuff)

good thing conscience is always there to save, mostly but not all the time

yet my life would involved to go on! on and on even if it kills...

sometimes crying would be the only solution i have to stop the shittiness and be able to put up a fake smile during daytimes...this reminds me of soujiro seta...

as for the last weeks of 2008, it was pretty surprising! a lot of things happened actualy,

> surprised that my fucked up heart is healthy, not 100% but whenever i see the couple* no worries and i think we are friends again! we exchanged sms over the holidays which was well a relief for me whopeee

>surprised that my friend whom i ditched years ago wasn't mad at me but i guess he was asking for more (see 2006 blog entrys) whopppe2x

> surprised that after spending 4 years without any contacts,still my true high school Friends were there putting a huge smile at my face and i don't care if i was at or not whopeee3x

>surprised that the friend i was talking about thinks i'm still into him,not! that would be like bullshit nyahahaha and besides i don't want to and i have other things to mind hahai yet it still bugs me ew like a squashed bug

while 2008 was ticking its clock away, my mind sets to wandering things again..

january would be pretty fast and a busy month for all of us

besides the cold weather, the burning urges to finally escape the monotoroues course i took will a blaze even harder

what could we expect o 2009? hmm more problems i guess since only freaking 3 months til graduation and i have like tons to do! waaah and i will say it again waaaah!

i think i'm behaving like a sloth each day,monotonous activities i have come to encounter when january started...

well there were some fun parts... like being stranded in one place due to weather and well talking to someone who compares himself like in the movies nyahhha codename: confused reality

the details would be i dunno not that quite exciting since i'm the one typing this but! i have a few words to that friend of mine... Don't be afraid! Move your ass to have what you need! hahaah like he's gonna read this, not!

the festivity still doens't end in new year because this weekend, the streets will be colorful! the colors reds, yellows and other bright things will come to life, loud music and street dancing will be ervrywhere like a massive concert all heads jumping at the same time. Don't orget the fireworks though hahaah which lasts like 30 minutes of shouting wow, oohs and ahhs

thinking too much over nothing would be a waste since i am happy! simply happy to be bless so much that this year would be another battle field... i'm not that fully armed but i guess determination,luck and un are the key ingredients to it! yeah!