Ola! (quick post)

Hello there kiddos! I really don't know if anyone does read this side of the net but hey I just want to say a big HI!

It's been months since I last posted and there were loads of things that happened that I can't even put into thoughts LOL

I don't know I guess everyone is busy doing their own thing and yes I just had some temporary runs on my net connection so I'll be forced to get on haitus again... Blame it on the brother since he's taking the board exams again this April 11.

As for other news, work is fun! I guess because the people I work with are a blast. The only bothered thing would be most of them are single ladies so I'm kinda labeled as one of them. WTH! It's not like I'm looking for anything serious hahahha just a guy to hang with.

with the PICU staff on the beach

Been constantly partying almost every weekend. Make that every off from work... It was fun but then kinda get's tiring... Usually I don't enjoy it but the company I have are great! Even though there are different people I still enjoy it though, brings me to a euphoria state where I can forget the problems... LOL (unsa ni high?)

 still with these people on partying! hahahaha

Usually I spend a lot of time keeping fit. I guess it all started when you're the only girl in a group of three and they are like eating veggies while you are stuck on an oily pizza. Peer pressure? I guess but it was time to get on the healthier side since my lifestyle composes of getting booze and jump up early. Trying on getting back with those high heels as well like college days but I need to keep my legs in control. As of the moment though, I'm on hibernating from all of this coz I think my health is being compromised.

The reason I had this quick post would be that my phone was missing. It's a first time for me so it's kinda shocking at first but then kevs. It's not yet paid fully so i have to pay for it plus the pictures and memories from that phone would be priceless. That phone and I spend more than a year, being there with my good and bad in betweens. Yeah the in betweens. I should have backed it up though. Hai so the plan now would to find a temporary phone for communication.

we three still together! hahahaha

Anyhow, I'll be returning to Bora for my summer trip this year. That I'm looking forward to... I had some minor sands and beaches here though but that would be my main event! Yeah basically I want changes this year... I just want to prove again to myself that this would be tough but I can get through this...

'Til next post... I'll try to make this blog alive again! Seems like my tweeks on the sidebar aren't working anymore.. oh well.. It's good to blog!

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Quarter Life Crisis

Borrowed and read the book, It’s kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini. Practically light and fun to read which probably you could finish it by one sitting. I discovered there the term quarter life crises. As what my memory served me, it was like the half of the middle life crises or the age after your teen years where you have to face the reality.

 the book ain't bad, try reading it [image source]

So I googled this one since a friend of mine asked if this thing exist:

‘The quarterlife crisis is a period of life following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the late teens to the early thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult. The term was coined by analogy with mid-life crisis.’

True it exists now since basically I think I have it…
 

According to Erikson’s 8 crises on human being, we have these social crises to overcome in every developmental stage. Adolescent has the identity vs. role confusion. I did however trouble on who I was way back but I did get over it. Young adulthood has intimacy vs. isolation. I guess I have trouble facing reality now due to some intimacy issues I guess. Funny when I just learned about this on college, I said to myself I didn’t experience nay crisis on every stage…yet. I was wrong. It all started to think about it when I had work. I guess I need to get out of there. Somehow work has drawn me into some self-hate. Due maybe to some circumstances of failed responsibilities or that it was so simple that I over analyzed it. Either way still I found some self-hate which scares me.
 

I guess I hate having responsibilities, but I need some finances to survive though. So should I quit then? Sooner maybe but I have to finish the contract then, as for now all I ask is to have passion on it.

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Safety Net

So people are into relationships these days, either its straight or gay. I guess I’m on the stage were everywhere you hear people hooking up with whom and etc. I have to admit that it’s getting annoying since I’m alone on that status yet I’m contented of the status I stand. But there these two friends who keep on clinging to each other.

I know I should be supportive of him but no matter what I try to wake the hell up, he will again use some kind of excuse or reasons that someday or somehow they will end up being together. As for the other party, she has gone gay. Gay of trying hooking up with the same sex. It’s a really bad coping mechanism actually from a past relationship that has brought her to change perspectives. It’s really annoying considering she wants it hidden but the actions are so fuck up lame. I mean you can clearly see the evidence and just trying too hard to impress on someone. I don’t know it’s just that this person is so smart on other aspects but chose the path of stupidity.

it's kinda suck being on a relationship which you are just an option [image source]

So I have been a witness of this relationship for years now. The guy is so helplessly hoping for things to work out, I mean he even considers some small body language as of a bigger deal. Hello of course you would make it a big deal since your so into her. As for the girl, she knows that the guy has a serious crush on her but then she just keeps it on the friend status. No idea on the detailed parts but even after college the guy is still clinging on somehow. But the girl has other plans. As she stated that they are just friends.

On my angle or anyone’s angle, you would see that the girl has somehow created a relationship to the guy that somehow no matter what she would do or have, this guy would be around and picks her up no matter what. Like being in a safety net. I don’t know if the guy sees this but I guess he does. I mean for crying out loud he only sees her when hanging out with the gang. His ears are so glued to the girl and that it’s kinda insulting to us. Insulting to that fact that even if we ask a decent conversation, he would stop just too get the girl’s attention. He says so many things that he doesn’t care or anything about her but his actions proves that he already ate his words. I also have this theory that he keeps on bugging out for hangs out so at least he has an excuse to be again with the girl. I don’t know it’s just that I don’t want to be the babysitter again. Yes I experienced being the third tag along and it sucked a lot.

The ironies of being on a safety net. As I look closer on some future possibilities, there is a great deal on that the guy will get the girl. I don’t know but still it’s a pity being on a safety net; being last or just an option. All I can say is good luck to both of them. It’s just that I know there a lots people out there being on a safety net kind of relationship, I say just stop and find another one than clinging on to someone. It’s better to leave and be single than hoping for someone that no matter how you put your acts on him/her, nothing will ever happen rather than friendship. It’s true that being on a friend zone is different on being the lover.

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Future Generation

It’s correct that I am no longer in my teen years. When I was young then, I constantly remind myself that I shouldn’t be a nagger adult. I shouldn’t be an old lady who yells to little children and scolds them. I have this nightmare to turn into an old witch… an ugly old witch with no friends and stuff like that.

Time proved me wrong coz even if I’m not old, I’m complaining already to some stuff these youngsters are doing. Of course not all are like that but mostly are like a pain on the asses. I have no idea why but it seems the future of this generation has somehow going to be in need help.

the generation gap [image source]

So this country is a sticker to its traditions and stuff. Mostly Southeast Asian countries are like that, since we owe it to our ancestors to what we are now. The only thing is that the value of respect and trust are somewhat being abused by these youngsters nowadays. I am a person who likes to respect people and be respected also. It has come to a time where anyone can yell to each other, isn’t that kinda sad? The moralities have disappeared and maybe this can lead to small misunderstandings to great wars. You can’t completely trust anyone these days. Even if that being is your so called best friend or lover, somehow that person has some dark issues you don’t like to see. What led to this? Gossip and lies. White lies that eventually got way out of hand and you can’t seem to put away.

As for some concerns, overweight has become the problem to school age kids. I guess due to technology and net, kids prefer to play indoors with their own gameboy, xbox, playstations or pc for entertainment. What happen to those running around streets playing with hoops or skipping to patentero or other stuff like that? Time sure did change so fast. Yet the being a 90’s child has its ups and downs.

I think some 90’s child has to be blame. I mean mostly new couples are from that era. I guess it’s up to people from different ages on how to race children nowadays. Yes I’m complaining but I can’t guarantee when I become a parent, I can’t promise for my children to avoid such things. People influence by other people. Yet one thing I’m certain that I will teach them are the values that I treasure like what my father did to me and my brother; we had our conscience as guidance when we make decisions.

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