Ola! (quick post)

Hello there kiddos! I really don't know if anyone does read this side of the net but hey I just want to say a big HI!

It's been months since I last posted and there were loads of things that happened that I can't even put into thoughts LOL

I don't know I guess everyone is busy doing their own thing and yes I just had some temporary runs on my net connection so I'll be forced to get on haitus again... Blame it on the brother since he's taking the board exams again this April 11.

As for other news, work is fun! I guess because the people I work with are a blast. The only bothered thing would be most of them are single ladies so I'm kinda labeled as one of them. WTH! It's not like I'm looking for anything serious hahahha just a guy to hang with.

with the PICU staff on the beach

Been constantly partying almost every weekend. Make that every off from work... It was fun but then kinda get's tiring... Usually I don't enjoy it but the company I have are great! Even though there are different people I still enjoy it though, brings me to a euphoria state where I can forget the problems... LOL (unsa ni high?)

 still with these people on partying! hahahaha

Usually I spend a lot of time keeping fit. I guess it all started when you're the only girl in a group of three and they are like eating veggies while you are stuck on an oily pizza. Peer pressure? I guess but it was time to get on the healthier side since my lifestyle composes of getting booze and jump up early. Trying on getting back with those high heels as well like college days but I need to keep my legs in control. As of the moment though, I'm on hibernating from all of this coz I think my health is being compromised.

The reason I had this quick post would be that my phone was missing. It's a first time for me so it's kinda shocking at first but then kevs. It's not yet paid fully so i have to pay for it plus the pictures and memories from that phone would be priceless. That phone and I spend more than a year, being there with my good and bad in betweens. Yeah the in betweens. I should have backed it up though. Hai so the plan now would to find a temporary phone for communication.

we three still together! hahahaha

Anyhow, I'll be returning to Bora for my summer trip this year. That I'm looking forward to... I had some minor sands and beaches here though but that would be my main event! Yeah basically I want changes this year... I just want to prove again to myself that this would be tough but I can get through this...

'Til next post... I'll try to make this blog alive again! Seems like my tweeks on the sidebar aren't working anymore.. oh well.. It's good to blog!

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Busted

Typically I got busted…again

found out again yet i didn't take back anything
image by marypops

Come to think of it, I got caught writing something bad to a person twice. First one was in first year college and the second was lately a week ago.

As for the first incident, my anger led me to write down unto a blog using one of those social sites, Friendster. I guess it was public at that time and I have no idea of it to be easily read by my friends on the site. Naïve. I’m looking for a tool actually that I can use to export those blogs here but nothing worked so far. I completely forgot on why on earth I was writing it, all I could remember is that my head was not in a good mood plus usually my only way of handling stress is through writing. I’m not a writer or anything but I find it an easy medium to release it more like sublimation, rather than using displacement or projection. So back to the first discovery, yeah those two literally read it and were sorry. I can still remember the reactions on their faces I guess I was hinting too much on the blog since they got it so easily. I’m a person who likes to use descriptions rather than names… confidentiality bases? Yeah I guess so but I usually don’t find totality hatred on the person, only the actions which are irritating. I suck on holding grudges for so long. Good thing people moved on plus still we have these ok relationships with those two. It wasn’t so bad and both of us learned from it too.

As for the second discovery, it was the frenemy; the same person who I used to describe last post. Well to my dismay, she found out about this blog. As for me I was shocked as hell. While waiting for the time to watch the Eclipse movie, she sent me a sms. I didn’t bother to open at first since I was kinda busy. Next thing I know, I was cursing at the top of my lungs with the twins laughing at me. I even texted my cousin, Lara and Carmi bout it but they just laughed about it too. Yes I freaked out since I know the exact words I used. Reality hit me; it was a good thing actually. At least now, she knows something about it, she’s aware about it. Why didn’t I tell her personally? I’m a person that doesn’t like unpleasant encounters. Plus my encounter was for a short term, wasn’t having any plans to stick around with her. It’s not like that I’m using her, the longer I stick with her the easily get annoyed on everything she does. It’s bothersome but maybe I was being annoying. It’s kinda hard to explain but I guess there are some people who befriend you are better seeing through only few times, not 24/7. It’s her beliefs what maker me irritated sometimes. Her principles maybe are not the things I believe but there is nothing I can do, I can’t force to change her if that are the things which make her what she is.

confused if what she's saying where true or not
image by sage18

How did she found out? Simple! Through my ym account. Not ready to showcase this blog to the friends I have since I’ll be killed for sure. Paranoid is one thing I am. Although I have some followers to this blog, I find it ok because only a few people know my schemes. I also trust them on reading about these schemes. I forgot that I wired my blog to my ym before when I was in high school. Busted totally.

So how things between her? Still friends but some changes. I guess she had it pretty bad since she doesn’t come to any of the review classes with me. We still have communication but I was the one at fault and there is nothing I can do about it. I apologized of course but she was the one who spaced away, my instincts are telling me she’s searching for another ally with this exam. Funny thing is that a very reliable source told me some view points about her and it’s the same as what I experienced. No wonder she’s like that now.

If she finds out this post again, I congratulate her. Oh yeah sorry again for calling her frenemy. I thought about changing this site address but found it would be useless. I don’t know also if you find this post or any of my previous posts being a meany but clearly that is what I feel writing about stuffs. Like I said, this is my sublimation, a coping that I found useful and harmless.

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Seeing Blue Heat

The scorching heat is really got into me. Its like hundred nails pricking you in an annoying way! Hence I can’t get wrong what’s not to love about summer!

I usually complain of everything too much in the weather, until now that is. The heat is so contagious that it makes me smile seeing puffy white clouds in a big blue of endless. Gaaaah it’s like a smile burner!

my summer blue heat in ormoc city

Instead of going back to thoughts of problems, my door always pictures a blue sky. I guess being in the second floor with a small balcony is nice! Hahhaha all I could wish is how to get those clouds to my reach. Er flying? Now that would be cool. Hmm maybe that’s the reason why I want to try gliding and jumping out in a plane with a parachute on so much. Para sailing was boring!

blue heat strikes in dalaguite

When the sky is soo blue and I am stuck in a boat trip from ormoc to cebu or vice versa, I would end up staring to the clouds and let my mind wander. Honestly I thought bout the gray man (the reason why I blog again) during most of those trips. And still I have no idea why on earth would I do that. I’m really drawn with the clouds, like they are calling me to come up here and have fun with the sun. Kinda similar to him, they are like magnets!

across the sun on the sands of boracay

under the sun on the heats of borbon

Indeed summer is so contagious! The problem is I have no destinations to go to! Unlike last year, I hope to have another trip to trip this year.

That reminds me, ken zhu’s video was so blue, hahah the show me your love song. Er I know its like ages but then I have to admit this was the only song I love to hear before over and over again! Not a F4 fan though. What else that’s hot about contagious and smile? Hmmmmm summer treats then? That would be a plus sign!

Ken Zhu's MV on Show me Your Love (catchy!)
plus its a karaoke version

Showing some skin is not, definitely not in my list. That would be suicide plus I have enough of that last year (Bora moments). March is drawing really fast, and the real summer months are approaching along the way would be the dreadful exam. Until now, I have no idea when my date test would be. I guess I should stop procrastinating… in another day! Hahaha

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