10 Rules of Being Human

we are all humans after all [image source]

1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it’s yours to keep for the entire period.

2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, “life.”

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The “failed” experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately “work.”

4. Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lessons does not end. There’s no part of life that doesn’t contain its lessons. If you’re alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.

6. “There” is no better a place than “here.” When your “there” has become a “here”, you will simply obtain another “there” that will again look better than “here.”

7. Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie within you. The answers to life’s questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

10. You will forget all this.

Written by Cherie Carter-Scott in Life is a Game, These Are The Rules [source]

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Maybe...

Maybe. . .we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe . . . when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don’t even see the new one which has been opened for us.

just maybe [image source]

Maybe . . . it is true that we don’t know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don’t know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe . . . the happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe . . . the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can’t go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe . . . you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do.

Maybe . . . there are moments in life when you miss someone — a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child — so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe . . . the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.

Maybe . . you should always try to put yourself in others’ shoes. If you feel that something could hurt you, it probably will hurt the other person, too.

Maybe . . you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe . . . giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don’t expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but, if it doesn’t, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe . . . happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

Maybe . . . you shouldn’t go for looks; they can deceive; don’t go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Maybe . . you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy

Maybe . . . you should try to live your life to the fullest because when you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling but when you die, you can be the one who is smiling and everyone around you crying.

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Cry for No Reason

To be honest I am a cry baby

If you ask any of my high school classmates, they would say yes with a nod in the head. Years back I tend to have uncontrolled lacrimal glands that an unpleasant feelings get me to tears. Unpleasant like pressure from school and some fuck up kids who are a pain in the ass. I consider myself I was bullied but that word is too strong to use. More like I was usually being the center of getting pick on coz I didn't fight back on words before. Hence I call my high school days as dark. It had led me to some teachings that no matter how you ask nicely to people, they will only bug you more. I can even remember one time that I had to bite my lip really hard so the tears would stop, but it didn’t and bit my lip til I tasted blood. Anyways I blame my hormones for all those days and made me swear that no matter what happen, what scenario or whoever the person I wouldn't need to shed one single tear.

Feeling relief, college was kind to me. It was a new environment. Made friends who can really relate to. My memories of it were hilarious and crazy that crying was hardly a part of it. I did cry but only for an exam or pressure from school. Except for one thing that happen in third year, but again I consider it now something as a joke. Hence the crying phase was done…

too dramatic eh? LOL [image source]

Yet tonight, I’m bored and the only thing that my mind is telling me right now is to cry. For the past few days, I've been smiling and laughing my grin for quite some time that I guess my inner being said that it’s not funny anymore. Been going out with friends, doing some catching up with old buddies, decent talks with my mom, work is doing ok yet I don’t know where the tears would come from. Horemones? Stress? Nope it’s just that my brain is telling me something that I can’t even understand. I don’t understand why but crying somehow is the answer. I dreaded sometimes this kind of feeling of uncertainty. People ask me what to do but really my answer commonly would be up to the person. Uncertainty. Or maybe there’s a force telling me something that I can’t quite figure it out also.

I tried watching comedic films or brainstorming my brain for an answers yet nothing. So I end up crying while typing this. At least I have a record of something that I am so confused about to settle an argument to myself. It sucks really, it sucks not knowing why… I guess my lacrimal glands needs to burst out some of the excess water so it can refill itself hahaha or the crybaby inside of me just like to be released once in a while. Yet I would leave this a mystery.

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A life in 2011

Another year has come for us all… so people may ask what are your new year resolutions then?

I guess you have a quick answer to yourself, resolution? That statement will only be good from the beginning yet people will go back to themselves again…

Happy New Year Everybody! awesome image by [image source]

Funny but its true since I experienced this for like years now…

What I actually find it clear is that why people think that way? I personally have my mind set to this kind of thing but how bout thinking the other way around? How bout thinking that I can change this 2011?

Mentality, don’t underestimate the power of the mind.

I mean many say that our destinies are written, we are the one who writes those destines. What you think affects what may happen in reality. Yes I don’t believe that there is such a thing as fate since we constantly have different wants in time.

Frame of mind

The statement above was based when I heard about Bo Sanchez. It got me thinking actually since what he said has somehow the same perception on the book of The Secret. He said that for you to change you should hang out with people who have a positive mind frame. With positive mind frame comes discipleship. When you go and have a relationship rather a relationship to change. That way its easy for you to change to a level that you can be successful. Simple yet challenging since mostly all the people here on earth are so negative. Take a look on my mother for example. You may have close friends who are like that hence you can dubbed them as dream killers. Instead that you are being influenced by these people, why about influencing them with your positivity; that way all of your friends can be benefited also.

Currently, that is what I’m trying to say through my text messages and twitter updates.

Thoughts become things



A little insight about the Laws of Attraction

So this was derived from the book, The Secret. Talking about the laws of attraction. If you think about it, it has the same concept as what Bo Sanchez had explained.

If what you think is that you’ll never change, then you won’t. Everything in this world is changing except for people who tends to be so close minded to what they already think. Kinda sad actually. For example me, I came to a realization that the reason I don’t loose any weight because my perception is that I’m not fat. I tend to say that my body is still ok but in reality its not. So how many times I put myself into diet, exercise or into some drugs none will work. And yes I challenge myself to that this 2011.

Try be a person with a positive frame of mind

Try be a person that can change and prove others

Try be a person that can help others to your ways on life

I love that to be that person on this new year. A person that can be of help. I challenge myself that. if you have read this part already then I thank you for being a witness to this post that on the next 12 months my life will change.

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Worst adviser

Experience is the best teacher. We may hear such from elder people but nothing can beat when you actually went through a transformation of bliss or hell. Since some of us can share the same experiences we had, we pass them to people for them not to commit the same mistake again.

yeah pleas do see the link here hahaha

I can’t let my mouth shut when it comes to talking. Some of them are entertainment for conversation or just to amuse others on the stories you have experienced. But when it comes to a real crisis, it’s a different story.

I also get into a panic mode when it comes to crisis. Usually my expression would be wearing this big smile on my face just to hide my jittering hands. It’s a learned counter attack when I was in college. At least I have something to thanks my clinical instructors though, with those menacing stares and bad tempers during return demonstrations. So have these two scenarios I would like to share when I was like cracking up inside:

Scenario 1
This was when my cousin got her phone robbed. It was after lunch when I got the phone call from her. At first I thought she was kidding around since I interpreted her crying as laughter. I was like ‘pagsure diha bing oi, hahahaha’ (are you sure?, hahaha) took me minutes to register that she was serious. Then I started to say those comforting words which my mind was thinking for a moment but my hands were shaking already. The call ended saying they were heading home. When they arrived, all I could think about was that what things I’m supposed to say. Luckily the conversation started and ended smoothly though. And guess what I was with my stupid smile again when dealing such things. Glad that now my cousin is happily with a new phone.

Scenario 2
It was my friend’s birthday but she was like miles away from Cebu. I already greeted her earlier so I wasn’t paying too much attention to some texts of hers since I was kinda busy playing online games. What had caught my attention was that when she replied about her birthday being the worst day ever. I didn’t quit get that clear yet since we always exchange messages full of humor or laughs. So I usually replied that it wasn’t that bad, there are other important aspects of seeking her birthday beside the weather and the electricity. She was complaining about how some of her close friends forgot to greet her birthday. It was around 9-10 in the evening when she called. Didn’t know she was already crying so I kinda freaked out myself. Never thought she was really that lonely coz I hardly hear or see this girl cry. I was like that waah stop crying and finding legal reasons for those people. Or that because they didn’t know it was her birthday since it wasn’t on fb. I also made some remarks on to diverting the conversation into something less depressing. Luckily it worked somehow; she stopped crying and was saying some energy boost for herself. I was constantly laughing and my hands were trembling while holding my phone. She even said that I was being a joker when she was in a crappy mood. Sorry I really am a nervous wreck when it comes to comforting.

Typically those were the scenarios that happened to me recently which was nerve wracking. It may sound normal but I just really can’t handle such things. In advising though, all I could really do is listen then point out something which is to me correct. Hence think before saying something inappropriate hehehe.

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Moving Forward

Doom's day has ended and took me a month to secure the answer to such exam that brought my knees to crumble



Yet I failed...

Yes I failed the NCLEX... The words 'we regret to inform you' keeps ticking on my head for like the nth time already since yesterday

The mail came around lunch time and I was supposed to be somewhere. Both excitement and nervousness filled my body while ripping out the top layer. To my surprise, I didn't make it. Funny because somewhere inside said that it was to be expected. It's like I knew my performance very well since that day, it wasn't a joke. So yes, it took me like minutes for the tears to flow. Then it started... the feelings of all negativity that I felt when I took that exam came rushing in. Weird my brother was the first person I contacted... hahahha and yeah he said something about stuff like moving forward.

Just keeping your feet moving forward [image source]

It's true you have to move forward, it's not the end of the world plus I can and I will take the exam again even if I have to pay for it for myself. The payment part, I think that won't be a problem too. My mother called and yes her voiced was calm at first. Shocked at first but I know my mother very well. Her anger tone will eventually come and it did.

I admit I lack on things... maybe I was too relax or that since I can be the master of my own review time I ended up doing more unnecessary things. Yes I did study, learn, concentrate and focus but the I underestimated the time, prayers and anxiety of passing the exam. I was so used to the strategy I have when I was still a student. It's first time actually failing something on a major exam. It was the first time that my style failed and it hurt my ego a lot.

So the remaining time I did yesterday was normal. After feeling the crapness out, I just went outside and did my networking stuff. It was a killer! I just keep thinking on my mind, nothing is impossible and that there's something else being directed to me. I don't know if it was fate but by far chance this have given me the opportunity to realize something.

Really I was feeling not down but ok. I was in the middle of ok and not good but it moved further to better. Only few friends knows about this and maybe if you're reading this then you have the idea. The driving force inside me saying that there are so many possibilities of making it outside the country. Further as the day turned dark, I was back to my old self again. Yes there were messages about self pity, thank you for those stuff but my positive thinking help me moved on! I mean look at me now, still busy with the online networking I joined which is really cool by the way.

Imagine the reason I started doing blogging again because I was so filled with crap, but along came this one and boom! I wasn't feeling that down and yes I wasn't that person who submerged herself with alcohol. Of course it is an eye opener but the possibilities for me to ways on still going and working abroad are still not limited.

I can't imagine why my mother is such a pessimistic person while my father is the opposite. Good thing I have a mind set like my fathers... I mean it pays, and yes this is just a temporary detour then. Plus she told me bout something earlier that the state boards of nursing are having a hard time on non American citizen to work there. Her friend's daughter is having a hard time which has a working visa holder working in a state, she hasn't turned to immigrant yet so the hospital issues her to transfer. Her agency plans to transfer her to Qatar. Makes sense right? So might as well go to another country that doesn't need the NCLEX...

I just need to reset my goals and I am going go!

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When Singles Talk

It was like a scene from a movie, three friends in a car on a Monday night. Two girls and a gay guy shared some interests on what’s going on with their lives. I was one of the three having those conversations. It was on random stuff from careers to personal choices, yet it lead to this sort of topic which I find it funny.

more or less the night was like this, should have snap a shot for a remembrance hehehe [image source]

The other girl opened up about being single. I have totally stated this issue for like a hundredth time in my blog. What I find it funny was that I usually don’t get tied up in conversations like this. From hook ups to heart breaks or from marriages to unwanted pregnancies, my 22 years of existence taught me a lot of things. But honestly what l lack on is experience on the dealing of intimate relationships. I have to admit I sure do write about being on the negative sides of being in a relationship, hence I have low idea on what’s it’s like on the positive state of being in a relationship. Lots of couples made it clear the awesomeness of being in love and all that crap can bring yet what I find it convincing to be in such a relationship would be the companion of the opposite sex. A companion who would do anything and I mean anything.

I’m thankful for having awesome friends who tend to be crazy when I get lonely but you can’t avoid having those days when every friend of yours is kinda busy. The topic went on and on for like an hour or so talking about how lovely would it be, by someone who will be there always or just for someone to talk to. I tried raising my points though of patience and all yet being 2 against 1 didn’t work.

What I did however was telling them the existence of other aspects of life like career, family and friends. Still I know how they feel though since I was and now in my single hood in my early adult years. Tired of waiting I guess. It does get lonely and sometimes I perceive myself that maybe something is wrong with me. I just can’t figure out what. I mean look at other people who are not so average looking still can hook up with other people. My mother always reminds me of stuff like this about how the way I look and act. Really no one has knocking on my door for the past 10 years I think on my existence. Reinventing then? Kinda hard but as of now I am still convenient on the ways I manage my life. Do I really need to change just to get noticed by someone? My answer is no. Can’t do that I mean that wouldn’t be titled as me right? Yes it’s lonely but it’s more important to respect yourself first.

How about the points on the gay guy? Well let’s just say all he could think as of the moment was that he can get that intimacy stuff but true love is still missing. Sexuality has always been an issue just to get attraction but no passion is present. It’s like a simple attraction according to him no deeper feelings of genuine love. I guess being on the homosexuality stuff still got some issues on this country. I kinda get jealous on where they get their self confidence though. I have self confidence but not that way up like my friend.

I divert myself into thinking there are other stuffs more important than being in such a relationship. It’s kinda hard to do but like I said I have crazy friends! There are some other aspect of life that you have to go up and down with it, its balance you know. You can’t have all the luxuries in the different aspects.

Ironically the song entitled "I Don’t Need a Soul (to hold)" by Relient K fits perfectly to this post.

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Imperfect

Sick of hearing it!
Sick of hearing how fat I am. I get it, I’m big so what? It’s not the end of the world!

what the fucking problem of being fat?! [source]

It’s not your problem why I’m like this…

It’s not your problem why I don’t have a boyfriend…

It’s not your problem why if ever I’ll be dead due to diabetes, heart attack or sort of disease that’s gonna clog up my veins or arteries…

It’s just that I’m sick… completely pissed of hearing these words over and over again for the past years. Since then I just laugh about it, but my bucket of smiles are empty… running out of any patience that I need to wipe out someone…

It’s not your problem that I like eating...

It’s not your problem that I like food so much especially sweets...

It’s not your problem that I usually munch on things when studying...

It’s not your problem that my stomach screams for food once in a while...

Is there any place for some weight on? Is there any problem if I gain a few pounds? So what if I have problems of being overweight now? I get it you don’t have to drill my skull to get to the point.

I’m proud of having this, it’s me, it’s not some crazy person who wants to look good that she ends up starving to death, or have severe stage of ulcers or worse using money just to pamper one self or just to get attention to everyone. That’s plainly aesthetic! I use my brain wisely, I don’t make decisions base on what others tell you too. I don’t give in to their demands and that you should be thankful that I have the thing to control everything I am since I know my limits.

That’s what I hate about society, making up what’s normal! Just because all you see are thin people, I am an eyesore then…

people tend to see what's outside, idiots! [source]

People are different, I have my own uniqueness. Good thing I don’t do drugs just to loose weight. See those actress on tv? Mostly the faces are fake anyway that I don’t know what’s real to them.

I do eat a balance diet, but still girls have these excess package that its kinda hard to pull it off. Exercise? Well I did but since you want to focus my attention to studying that I clearly stop going to the gym and concentrating on sitting. If only I could drill these words to your skull too.

I can handle this, since I am like this since before. I hate it even typing these words makes me want to literally punch you on the face even if we are related.

Imperfect! Plus I don’t want to be controlled. All I want you to do is just relax and let me handle this. Maybe I should use those drugs just to shut the hell out of you.

My posts are becoming lame I know but it’s my medium of release for me

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Busted

Typically I got busted…again

found out again yet i didn't take back anything
image by marypops

Come to think of it, I got caught writing something bad to a person twice. First one was in first year college and the second was lately a week ago.

As for the first incident, my anger led me to write down unto a blog using one of those social sites, Friendster. I guess it was public at that time and I have no idea of it to be easily read by my friends on the site. Naïve. I’m looking for a tool actually that I can use to export those blogs here but nothing worked so far. I completely forgot on why on earth I was writing it, all I could remember is that my head was not in a good mood plus usually my only way of handling stress is through writing. I’m not a writer or anything but I find it an easy medium to release it more like sublimation, rather than using displacement or projection. So back to the first discovery, yeah those two literally read it and were sorry. I can still remember the reactions on their faces I guess I was hinting too much on the blog since they got it so easily. I’m a person who likes to use descriptions rather than names… confidentiality bases? Yeah I guess so but I usually don’t find totality hatred on the person, only the actions which are irritating. I suck on holding grudges for so long. Good thing people moved on plus still we have these ok relationships with those two. It wasn’t so bad and both of us learned from it too.

As for the second discovery, it was the frenemy; the same person who I used to describe last post. Well to my dismay, she found out about this blog. As for me I was shocked as hell. While waiting for the time to watch the Eclipse movie, she sent me a sms. I didn’t bother to open at first since I was kinda busy. Next thing I know, I was cursing at the top of my lungs with the twins laughing at me. I even texted my cousin, Lara and Carmi bout it but they just laughed about it too. Yes I freaked out since I know the exact words I used. Reality hit me; it was a good thing actually. At least now, she knows something about it, she’s aware about it. Why didn’t I tell her personally? I’m a person that doesn’t like unpleasant encounters. Plus my encounter was for a short term, wasn’t having any plans to stick around with her. It’s not like that I’m using her, the longer I stick with her the easily get annoyed on everything she does. It’s bothersome but maybe I was being annoying. It’s kinda hard to explain but I guess there are some people who befriend you are better seeing through only few times, not 24/7. It’s her beliefs what maker me irritated sometimes. Her principles maybe are not the things I believe but there is nothing I can do, I can’t force to change her if that are the things which make her what she is.

confused if what she's saying where true or not
image by sage18

How did she found out? Simple! Through my ym account. Not ready to showcase this blog to the friends I have since I’ll be killed for sure. Paranoid is one thing I am. Although I have some followers to this blog, I find it ok because only a few people know my schemes. I also trust them on reading about these schemes. I forgot that I wired my blog to my ym before when I was in high school. Busted totally.

So how things between her? Still friends but some changes. I guess she had it pretty bad since she doesn’t come to any of the review classes with me. We still have communication but I was the one at fault and there is nothing I can do about it. I apologized of course but she was the one who spaced away, my instincts are telling me she’s searching for another ally with this exam. Funny thing is that a very reliable source told me some view points about her and it’s the same as what I experienced. No wonder she’s like that now.

If she finds out this post again, I congratulate her. Oh yeah sorry again for calling her frenemy. I thought about changing this site address but found it would be useless. I don’t know also if you find this post or any of my previous posts being a meany but clearly that is what I feel writing about stuffs. Like I said, this is my sublimation, a coping that I found useful and harmless.

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Small Pleasures

Feeling crappy upon waking up, my mind was stuck on a constant thing. stuck. I guess that word would eventually be my partner in crime for the following weeks or maybe months! The horror!

a nice hug from ipin to lambo

My fingers were my saviors for the day typing random stuff on google and yahoo. So this was the result of using your instinct for a change.

Small pleasures while not spending money! what a relief!! ^___^ (original article here) you gotta appreciate the little things which is so true; the bold ones are my usual reasons to smile

1. coloring (yes, grown-ups can do it, too)
2. crisp cotton sheets
3. soft skin
4. old family recipes
5. the first daffodils of spring
6. sleeping in
7. an exercise endorphin high
8. window boxes
9. a perfect cup of coffee
10. a genuine compliment (giving or receiving)
11. the way babies smell
12. a handwritten letter
13. waking up in a good mood...for no real reason
14. singing in the shower
15. finding a couple forgotten dollars in your pocket
16. doing something nice for your neighbor
17. a home cooked meal
18. laughing
19. movie theater popcorn
20. playing hookey
21. a bubble bath
22. swimming
23. an afternoon nap
24. street musicians
25. your favorite song
26. saying thank you
27. helping someone in need
28. old fashioned photo booths
29. fresh whipped cream
30. inspiring blogs
31. a glass of wine
32. rainy afternoons
33. the funny things kids say
34. a novel you can get lost in
35. finding the perfect piece of clothing...on sale
36. clean laundry
37. the wind in your hair
38. treating the person behind you at the drive-thru
39. sharing an umbrella
40. the smell of lavender
41. a long walk that clears your head
42. a bear hug
43. The Beatles
44. smiling at a stranger
45. eating with chopsticks (Chinese food optional)
46. butterflies
47. staying in your pj's all day
48. singing along to the radio and knowing all the words
49. fresh herbs
50. ordering in pizza
51. happy endings...even if they're fictional
52. flying a kite
53. puppies
54. root beer floats
55. holding open the door...
56. ...or having someone hold the door for you
57. fountain soda
58. white, fluffy towels
59. sunshine
60. spending an afternoon at a museum
61. really great advice
62. green lights all the way home
63. the sound of rain hitting the windows
64. sitting in a booth
65. holding hands
66. a great hair day with no effort
67. building a fort with your kids
68. when someone falls asleep with their head on your shoulder
69. fireflies
70. the perfect taco
71. geraniums on a windowsill
72. slow dancing
73. the smell of fresh-baked bread
74. cheesy, uplifting musicals
75. great stories
    
76. the smell of gasoline
77. the cold side of the pillow
78. love letters
79. old friends...
80. ...new friends
81. a pull-through parking space
82. a baguette -- crisp on the outside, airy on the inside
83. when a dog licks your hand
84. sitting at the counter at an old-fashioned diner
85. using your favorite dishes
86. reading your child a bedtime story
87. Girl Scout Cookies
88. flossing
89. kissing someone you love
90. the smell of onions and garlic cooking
91. hot chocolate
92. jumping in puddles
93. old photographs
    
94. birds hopping on the sidewalk
95. Ella Fitzgerald
96. a spoonful of peanut butter straight from the jar
97. your softest t-shirt
98. a new magazine in the mail
99. fireplaces
100. having exact change
101. bacon and pancakes cooking on Saturday morning

***image 1 by Chancake
***image 2 by Dmstei00
***image 3 by GreenifyME

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88 Truths

A friend tagged me this note. wow and they were truths indeed... the italicized ones would be my truths that kinda struck me the most.. enjoy reading! oh yeah the link to this is right here.

1. You can’t change other people, and it’s rude to try.

2. It is a hundred times more difficult to burn calories than to refrain from consuming them in the first place.

3. If you’re talking to someone you don’t know well, you may be talking to someone who knows way more about whatever you’re talking about than you do.

4. The cheapest and most expensive models are usually both bad deals.

5. Everyone likes somebody who gets to the point quickly.

6. Bad moods will come and go your whole life, and trying to force them away makes them run deeper and last longer.

7. Children are remarkably honest creatures until we teach them not to be.

8. If everyone in the TV show you’re watching is good-looking, it’s not worth watching.

9. Yelling always makes things worse.

10. Whenever you’re worried about what others will think of you, you’re really just worried about what you’ll think of you.

11. Every problem you have is your responsibility, regardless of who caused it.

12. You never have to deal with more than one moment at a time.

13. If you never doubt your beliefs, then you’re wrong a lot. ( hahahhaha)

14. Managing one’s wants is the most powerful skill a person can learn.

15. Nobody has it all figured out.

16. Cynicism is far too easy to be useful.

17. Every passing face on the street represents a story every bit as compelling and complicated as yours.

18. Whenever you hate something, it hates you back: people, situations and inanimate objects alike.

19. Ralph Waldo Emerson’s works alone can teach you everything you need to know about living with grace and happiness.

20. People embellish everything, as a rule.

21. Anger reveals weakness of character, violence even moreso.

22. Humans cannot destroy the planet, but we can destroy its capacity to keep us alive. And we are.

23. When people are uncomfortable with the present moment, they fidget with their hands or their minds. Watch and see.

24. Those who complain the most, accomplish the least.

25. Putting something off makes it instantly harder and scarier.

26. Credit card debt devours souls.

27. Nobody knows more than a minuscule fraction of what’s going on in the world. It’s just way too big for any one person to know it well.

28. Most of what we see is only what we think about what we see.

29. A person who is unafraid to present a candid version of herself to the world is as rare as diamonds.

30. The most common addiction in the world is the draw of comfort. It wrecks dreams and breaks people.

31. If what you’re doing feels perfectly safe, there is probably a better course of action.

32. The greatest innovation in the history of humankind is language.

33. Blame is the favorite pastime of those who dislike responsibility.

34. Everyone you meet is better than you at something.

35. Proof is nothing but a collection of opinions that match your own.

36. Knowledge is belief, nothing more.

37. Indulging your desires is not self-love.

38. What makes human beings different from animals is that animals can be themselves with ease.

39. Self-examination is the only path out of misery.

40. Whoever you are, you will die. To know and understand that means you are alive.

41. Revenge is for the petty and irresponsible.

42. Getting truly organized can vastly improve anyone’s life.

43. Almost every cliché contains a truth so profound that people have been compelled to repeat it until it makes you roll your eyes. But the wisdom is still in there.

44. People cause suffering when they are suffering themselves. Alleviating their suffering will help them not hurt others.

45. High quality is worth any quantity, in possessions, friends and experiences.

46. The world would be a better place if everyone read National Geographic.

47. If you aren’t happy single, you won’t be happy in a relationship.

48. Even if it costs no money, nothing is free if it takes time.

49. Emotions exist to make us strongly biased towards or against something. This hinders as often as it helps.

50. Addiction is a much greater problem in society than it’s made out to be. It’s present in every person in various forms, but usually we call it something else.

51. “Gut feeling” is not just a euphemism. Tension in the abdomen speaks volumes about how you truly feel about something, beyond all arguments and rationales.

52. Posture and dress change profoundly how you feel about yourself and how others feel about you, like it or not.

53. Everyone thinks they’re an above average driver.

54. The urge to punish others has much more to do with venting frustration than correcting behavior.

55. By default, people think far too much.

56. If anything is worth splurging on, it’s a high-quality mattress. You’ll spend a third of your life using it. (sleeeeep!)

57. There is nothing worse than having no friends.

58. To write a person off as worthless is an act of great violence.

59. Try as we might to be otherwise, we are all hypocrites.

60. Justice is a human invention which is in reality rarely achievable, but many will not hesitate to destroy lives demanding it.

61. Kids will usually understand exactly what you mean if you keep it to one or two short sentences.

62. Stuff that’s on sale usually has an annoying downside.

63. Casual swearing makes people sound dumb.(guilty!)

64. Words are immensely powerful. One cruel remark can wound someone for life.

65. It’s easy to make someone’s day just by being uncommonly pleasant to them.

66. Most of what children learn from their parents isn’t taught on purpose.

67. The secret ingredient is usually butter, in obscene amounts.

68. It is worth re-trying foods that you didn’t like at first.(so agree to this)

69. Problems, when they arise, are rarely as painful as the experience of fearing them.

70. Nothing — ever — happens exactly like you pictured it.

71. North Americans are generally terrible at accepting compliments and offers of help.

72. There are not enough women in positions of power. The world has suffered from this deficit for a long time.

73. When you break promises to yourself, you feel terrible. When you make a habit of it, you begin to hate yourself.

74. A good nine out of ten bad things I’ve worried about never happened. A good nine out of ten bad things that did happen never occurred to me to worry about.

75. You can’t hide a bad mood from people who know you well, but you can always be polite.

76. Sometimes you have to remove certain people from your life, even if they’re family.

77. Anyone can be calmed in an instant by looking at the ocean or the stars.

78. There is no point finishing a book you aren’t enjoying. Life is too short for that. Swallow your pride and put it down for good, unfinished.

79. There is no correlation between the price of a brand of batteries and how long they last.

80. Breaking new ground only takes a small amount more effort than you’re used to giving.

81. Life is a solo trip, but you’ll have lots of visitors. Some of them are long-term, most aren’t.

82. One of the best things you can do for your kids is take them on road trips. I’m not a parent, but I was a kid once.

83. The fewer possessions you have, the more they do for you.

84. Einstein was wiser than he was intelligent, and he was a genius.

85. When you’re sick of your own life, that’s a good time to pick up a book.

86. Wishing things were different is a great way to torture yourself. (i wish a lot!)

87. The ability to be happy is nothing other than the ability to come to terms with how things change.

88. Killing time is an atrocity. It’s priceless, and it never grows back (procrastinate baby!)

well that's about it hehehe technically i scanned the list like thrice already and still it bugs me heehehe

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Compositions

I've been trying to search all my poems that i have published through the net. Its kinda scattered and i just wanted then filed enough...

It brings back some memories, both good and bad ones. It's like a relief for me too, dunno if I'm that good in making poems since I usually put it in words that are easily understood. Melodramatic then? nah just bored and my mind wanders a lot thus the title of this blog.

Frenemy

Like hammers that beat one tune
Haven’t seen such scary moon
Haziness what my eyes see
None compares your cruelty

You’re selfishness has succumb
Sanity barely hold womb
Like a child that is haughty
Fake smiles like from ebony

Bit of you my life to hate
Every time spend cannot take
Politeness what I’m accustom
Yet thoughts bring to your tomb

Actions failed deliver the truth
Still chained from the dying sooth
Dumb to understand my plee
Just one of your frenemy

This one was done yesterday, still confused on what to do with her... she's like impossible to deal with. Yes i tried to offer her opinions first but she has no direct intention to her actions on whatsoever. I always the one who end up with stupidity. She's still the same person on what my previous blogs that i complained about sheeesh! Plus she's so dependent with people around her and she's on her twentys already!

Tearful Rain

Can’t control of sluggish flow
Blaming gravity for the show
Yet coolness what I needed
For flushes that bleeded

Each drop is pain and relief
Wish to stop, early brief
No sheath nor shield can yield
Falling into empty field

Hands wet from rain and tears
Trying to master for years
Failure beckons until now
Simple solution to how

Curtains fall after drama
Going through all, I don’t wanna
Light has return not fully
Must return to my journey

I made this last year around june... those where the times when i was alone and have no idea on what to do with life. Maybe i was overwhelmed by the rain that day and it matched my mood so well. Yeah with the drama on board exams as well, I was a nervous wreck and had no idea if my life would be in the drains or up up there somewhere warm not wet.

Chances

You’re so far away to reach
Hands are short and numb
Calling your name but can’t reach
Insides feeling cold and dumb

Air is thin and I’m grasping
Searching your voice or face
Getting up but strength’s lacking
Keeping up with your pace

You wouldn’t turn to look at me
Not even a nod, stare or smile
Is there something I wrong to thee
Made me feel angry or even cry….

The chant we had has lost and missing
But I guess we’re done and through
Unlike before your eyes were twinkling
Warming and taking away my blues…

Feelings and still intact and true
Is moving on the right path?
Decided mind but heart confused
Asking for a second chance…

This was born due to my thoughts of having a lost lover. i guess i should write a story on something about that hahahahha no i'm not the star on that one rather another person that is opposite of me...but that would be another hard work *lazy* now that i mentioned the word lover, its kinda weird yet fun on pretending your thoughts to someone else. I guess this poem was a wish rather than calling.

Other compositions:

Afraid
A Must Have
Bitter Revenge
Phrases and Stanzas
Plain
Tempting Ice Cream
The Hermit
Your Somebody

I never thought I would have a handful already just so you know, this is due to boredom that I came out with these stuff.

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Karma hit YOU pretty Good

Weird I was jokingly wishing for something bad to that person, guess what? It did happen! Instead of feeling oh so cloud nine, it’s more like I’m feeling guilty for having saying that in the first place…

guilty! by *dholl

One things for sure, revenge isn’t sweet... for this time but I didn’t do anything, I just let time and karma to break in and loose all hell that I was feeling before… maybe just maybe good vibration is on my side! whooppeee I just wish that good vibration would be there until the day I’m done with the exams and all…

What other stuff happen was that he has to challenge himself on getting his relationship to work. But still I believe in him that he’ll pull things off for the better of them. Hmmmm I think I’m the bad guy in this scenario! Hahahaha since the results came for the NLE, guilt was on my part. Guilty of saying those words out loud, guilty of cursing him before, guilty of being a selfish person. My ego hurt badly and well things just way got of hand when the world stabs you.

I am jealous! That’s a big word that I hate using against me since now I can still feel evil thoughts crawling in. I know I don’t have any rights! Not even a single bit! Maybe that’s why I hate Februarys, it’s the month of love and his birthday. I’ve been hating that month for 3 years in a row! A lot of good people like my dad and two close friends celebrate their birthdays this month. I guess those happiness where overshadowed. Hating that there is nothing I could do that I could get even with him without hurting him.

I always have negative feelings during this month, after what happened! Experience was a cruel thing to teach me though… (thanks to a status, this was on my head!)

You may call him innocent since he has no idea but it’s really nice to like saying it straight to him so that thoughts are cleared. Problem is I readily assume things; I’m a girl for crying out loud! I could laugh about it, but then thinking again makes me realize what a sleezeball I am. Lame right? What the heck. I just hate that my wall crumbled to the ground, without any help directly from him. I was forced to put it back together since that’s my only choice.

Yeah I’m being a paranoid, evil thinker and green eyed monster. Ok I have to admit being those three has its advantages.

(pause: stares computer for 45 seconds)

karma hit him pretty good (evil laugh!) by ARFI

Hmmm wait typing after this, makes my head and conscience clear! I’m washing my hands over this and it’s a Sunday. I didn’t do anything; I let time do his thing.

That’s right, I let karma hit him pretty good.

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Ugly Love

Before I could scream all of my angst inside there are some major points I would like to clarify. I have never been in to a serious relationship so how do I know all these stuff? I guess people are so into that state that when it comes to failing or broken hearts, I’m just unluckily there… gathering all data er more like witnessing them that it comes in all forms. No I am not a love guru or an expert as the matter of fact, but I think the data I gathered are quite sufficiently enough for me to speak my mind off.

Its true being in love is one of the greatest thing that man will ever experience. At least you have the reason to look forward unto the day, or that someone would rescue you from all you woes or having someone who just loves every bit and piece of you including your teeth.

One aspect I can see clearly is that there are no permanent happy endings. When we were young, tv has probably feeding us inputs that are more on the positive sides of life. Yeah there’s like a little part when the evil triumphs but hey! Who wants evil to win in a movie right?? Luckily, life has its little secrets to feed us (reality) and it goes by with us. More like wheels, going up and down, up and down again… that stuff… thus divorce was born! People just easily get married and if happy ending runs out pooof! Lawyers and papers kicks in. I don’t get it; marriage is like a really big step and here we are in this world practicing man and woman to be easily divided just by signing some papers. Mind you only the lawyers gain all the profit…

Torn apart by sailor-midnightstar

One funny data I also see is that people all get really really crazy when it comes the love agenda. Either way, all I could say is plain over reacting. One situation is even if the couple are still together likely one partner would pull something pathetic which maybe kinda weird more likely creepy hahaha, fine fine the partner is just being sweet right? Really there are just some people that just takes over the lives of one’s partner… more like the boss or like the master puppeteer… females usually do this controlling their partner’s movements, kinda sucks for being in his shoes don’t you think? I mean give the guy his privacy, because too much isn’t healthy. Plus trust him, he’ll come back to you like a lost puppy for sure. (unless your putting him too much trust, that he’s cheating on you tsk tsk tsk) like what my cousins say, respect and communication should be there… (this part here was all their idea hehehe)

As for the other aspect, hitting splits Ville. All I could think about this one is the inner wildness in us more like the inner jealousy in us just takes over all our existence. Its like your partner just hit you really good and the wake up call comes in different things: revenge, remorse or killing thyself. It’s still ugly…

Next would be the sex thing. Every guy just wanna get laid. Usually they prefer doing it being the first one to a gal, I dunno maybe it’s like a male dominance thing. Since mostly I’m surrounded with overflowing testosterones in my family, this topic has been more like a common conversation. Believe me, it was weird at first but then those guys did teach me something… yes I’m a girl but just because I see a naked photo of I guy that doesn’t mean I’m hitting trough orgasm… I guess girls are hard to please hahaha

Trapped by Love? by LordMishkin

The only nuisance about girls is that doing it first to a guy and then when they broke up, the girl just go berserk and all. Yes we live in a conservative country, and that virginity is sacred to us but why go nuts? I’m not blaming them for anything but 75% of it belonged to them since they let their man do it. But because the guy loves you and all still it’s your responsibility, only girls have the rights to be in that position or not. (except for rape) Personally, I guess its ok to be devirginize now a days and mostly people see it as part of society; slowly accepting though… but just remember the balance beam, cause the risk factors are quite huge compared to 10-15 minutes of pleasure. And oh practice it safely too.

So far, those are my data that are clearly to see. Hmmm there are other aspects too, like the age gap, mistresses, unrequited love and cheating. Mostly these are depict on movies... Love just not all sunny days you know...

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