Showing posts with label bad day. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bad day. Show all posts

Thursday, October 17, 2013

October 15, 2013

Woke up the usual and timed in for work. Second day on being a nurse with my baby patient in the pedia ICU. I was psyched to get the day over for it was my last day and was the holiday. Holiday meaning double pay for some how staying 12 hours on the hospital.
 
My patient was still awake and her mother was there. Luckily my patient was attached to an oxygen cannula and to the cardiac monitor only, so it wasn’t much of a hassle.
 
Around 8:15 am, I was done with preparing her milk and giving the meds when suddenly it started to shake. I was kinda reluctant that the earthquake would stop but it got stronger. The mother was praying then onto the Lord and held on the baby crouching herself unto the floor. Instinct brought me to keep them priority so I covered them with my body not caring of my own. I was still in calm and I could hear some of my workmates screams. I started to panic a lil when I saw some falling ceiling tiles from the hallway. This was not an ordinary shake and well I think it lasted around  a minute. Instinct drove me again that it wasn’t safe and the three of us should get out.  The mother and her child was still calm and well I just pulled out all the cables and aquapack and headed to the exit. No one was badly injured but those gruesome seconds of the deadly shake was unbearable.

 the Pedia ICU after the earthquake [pic by coworker sasa]

My hands were shaking when all the trembling was over. Good thing my patient was calm enough. My other two workmates were crying and shaking as well. All I could thing next was to provide oxygen for the baby, good thing my senior staff had already secured a portable oxygen. The Pedia Resident was there and checked the baby, said she was ok. My pregnant charge nurse decided to transfer my patient to the ER, an isolation room to be exact. Together with the resident, the baby, her mother and two of us staff nurses, we headed to the ER since my workplace was on the second floor.
 
The stairs were packed of people when we got there. Everybody was in a frenzy including patients who could walk, patients who can’t but where man carried or carried on their beds, medical staff and other people who just wanted to get out of there. The hospital doesn’t have any ramps available on floors so they man carried the beds, breaking along the way some parts of the stairs.
 
When we reached the er, thankfully the isolation room was empty and the baby was still in a calm state. I just hooked her to a portable pulse oximeter and oxygen, she was fine. I was still trying to contact my brother and cousins at home. Like always, the reception was crap. I did reached them after a couple of trys and there were fine. My pregnant charge nurse followed after us and stayed there. She wasn’t suppose to stay upstairs in case some after shocks occurred.
 
Code white was on.
 
I left my patient to the care of my charge nurse so I could help others upstairs. A few people were already on the ER with hyperventilating problems, seizures, injuries due to falling objects and fainting. It was like in a movie scene. I was asking God why during those first few minutes, and thanking Him that I was safe.
 
the entrance of the hospital [pic by coworker nico]

tents made from bedsheets and poles built on the parking area [pic from coworker karen]

 the outside street in front of the hospital [pic by coworker siao]

 the other side of the hospital with stable patients sitting down [pic from coworker karen]

Transferring patients who are intubated is not a joke. There were seven patients on the ICU, two weren’t intubated and two adult patients on the pedia ICU both intubated. Our patients on the pedia ICU where transferred to the ICU since it was still in place. The ICU resident in charge was indecisive if to transfer all patients downstairs. News broke out that there was fire on the 5th floor due to some voltage problem but only in a room. The smell reached on the ER when I made my way up on the second floor. The Engineering department put down the fire quickly before the Fire Extinguishers got there. The significant others of the intubated patients went berserk-ed and demanded for their loved ones to get outside. Good thing the chief IM resident was there and made most of the arrangments and decision making. We had to transfer the patients. The non intubated patients were first, followed by the stable intubated ones. We were running like mad men with oxygen tanks on hand, looking for some spare oxygen gauges and ambubags. It was an adrenaline rush! All of them were placed on parking areas and other non critical patients were place on the streets with tents on. E-karts were opened, portable suction machines lined up, doctors were in a frenzy on updating the statuses of the patients and consultants ordering non stop. There was even an emergency CS made on the ER. The administration were also there.

the scenario at the Fuente Circle, Cebu after the quake [pic by coworker keith]
 
The scenario lasted even I was off my shift. It was gruesome and amazing at the same time. You could witnessed all people work hand in hand to get all those patients safe. Even the off duty staffs and alumni were there. The aftershocks were a pain in the asses but there was nothing else to do. Time flew so quickly and all I wanted was for those aftershocks to stop. That duty was so exhausted that even at night I wasn’t able to sleep properly due to the aftershocks; which my brother and I spent it in my cousin’s house in Talamban.
 
The earthquake had the magnitude of 7.2 originally from Bohol, which was a neighboring island of Cebu. It was more lethal for the Boholanos, roads and bridges been blocked and ripped open, no clean water and electricity too. Some of the fine churches were in rumbles. Even in Cebu the Basilica de Sto Niño has it’s bell tower ruined.
 
My university in North Reclamation with the bus flattened [pic from facebook]

the different churches in Bohol that were affected by the quake [pic from facebook]
 the Sto. Niño Basilica with its bell tower in shambles [pic from yahoo]

Other casualties included houses been shattered, my own university was flattened on the ceiling including the bus. Most cars were toppled down with stones and other building debris. A recorded of a hundred people (or more) died and some twenty people still missing.
 
other parts of Cebu that were affected [pic from instagram] 
civilians who died in a fish market in Pasil, Cebu [pic from facebook]
 It was a total disaster. Even after two days, aftershocks are still present. I guess the earth is getting old. So old that earthquakes and typhoons are often now a days. Is God’s way of revenge? I don’t think so. It’s His way that this earth is not perfect. No matter how human are well trained or well prepared for such incidents, still there are some that we couldn’t predict.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Money Talks

Technically, money isn’t important right? Right? This statement has been circling around my head for 3 days now. Seems like the twisted of unluckiness has visited me. Left me broke and well thinking of ways for survival due to my cravings. It’s basically my fault since I miscalculated some spenditures, left me hanging until Monday.

shiny coins not in my wallet

My biggest problem is still money. I don’t get it. Well I don’t have any job… yet but I keep on losing my way back into spending everything to what heart’s desire. It’s my 5th year living in a place where I studied. I stayed in a shared room with my brother and allowances are my soul surviving skill to this place. Without it, I’m dead.

My brain keeps on yelling why do we have to bargain something to get what we want?? Yes its bad to steal and this world would be chaotic if no rules were applied. The problem is that how come money goes away easily. Simple, its all man’s idea of luxury. I do have my own luxurious dreams in life. Even if *coughs* my parents are not into those things, their daughter is.

My parents are included in those dreams though; like sending them to a cruise trip to their anniversaries or bringing my dad to his favorite tennis championship games or giving my mom her favorite pair of jimmy choo sandals. My brother can afford his own dream luxury since he’s a very very thrifty person! I wish I would be one but hence thanks to my father, I kinda inherit my spending skills from him! I just wish I could repay them the fee they gave me just for education. Education is the only thing they ever supported so much. By saying that I will always have my father playing in my head saying those exact words. I guess I am trained to be like this. And yeah I do get second thoughts on asking from them or cheating from them… my evil self always stayed quite when it comes to these money talks. (I’m also a goody cookie you know!)

luxury living! ok i am being materialistic haha

What if I could get a job now? On what? I don’t like to be in a call center (proud ego) or work as a private nurse on night shifts (a friend invited me). Seriously I lack skills on my nursing area. Its been like almost a year and never did I step to a hospital or clinic. As for the pay, didn’t ask I rather keep my license protected instead of risking it! That reminds me, I have a poofy face on my license, waaah it’s like I had facial edema! (sorry I won’t show it to you *sticks tongue out*)

Back to the money business agenda, hmm my survival mode is on today since last week I was spending my ass of mainly on food! Hahai reminds me of the debts I own. I don’t want to give any details about it, all I know is that I must must find a way in repaying them! I know my dignity has somehow being like stab again but still I will pay them! T_T

Wishful thinking…

The only part I want to be in a reality is that I’ll stop complaining and get my ass off the chair. There are no shortcuts to life, or fast forwards either.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Karma hit YOU pretty Good

Weird I was jokingly wishing for something bad to that person, guess what? It did happen! Instead of feeling oh so cloud nine, it’s more like I’m feeling guilty for having saying that in the first place…

guilty! by *dholl

One things for sure, revenge isn’t sweet... for this time but I didn’t do anything, I just let time and karma to break in and loose all hell that I was feeling before… maybe just maybe good vibration is on my side! whooppeee I just wish that good vibration would be there until the day I’m done with the exams and all…

What other stuff happen was that he has to challenge himself on getting his relationship to work. But still I believe in him that he’ll pull things off for the better of them. Hmmmm I think I’m the bad guy in this scenario! Hahahaha since the results came for the NLE, guilt was on my part. Guilty of saying those words out loud, guilty of cursing him before, guilty of being a selfish person. My ego hurt badly and well things just way got of hand when the world stabs you.

I am jealous! That’s a big word that I hate using against me since now I can still feel evil thoughts crawling in. I know I don’t have any rights! Not even a single bit! Maybe that’s why I hate Februarys, it’s the month of love and his birthday. I’ve been hating that month for 3 years in a row! A lot of good people like my dad and two close friends celebrate their birthdays this month. I guess those happiness where overshadowed. Hating that there is nothing I could do that I could get even with him without hurting him.

I always have negative feelings during this month, after what happened! Experience was a cruel thing to teach me though… (thanks to a status, this was on my head!)

You may call him innocent since he has no idea but it’s really nice to like saying it straight to him so that thoughts are cleared. Problem is I readily assume things; I’m a girl for crying out loud! I could laugh about it, but then thinking again makes me realize what a sleezeball I am. Lame right? What the heck. I just hate that my wall crumbled to the ground, without any help directly from him. I was forced to put it back together since that’s my only choice.

Yeah I’m being a paranoid, evil thinker and green eyed monster. Ok I have to admit being those three has its advantages.

(pause: stares computer for 45 seconds)

karma hit him pretty good (evil laugh!) by ARFI

Hmmm wait typing after this, makes my head and conscience clear! I’m washing my hands over this and it’s a Sunday. I didn’t do anything; I let time do his thing.

That’s right, I let karma hit him pretty good.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

String of Chaos

Remember this date, 29th of September year 2009. Its like I’m stuck on a paralyze world of unluckiness! We all go through everyday weirdness right and ironically I got a horoscope saying that I have to expect the weirdest day ever, well surely that was date!


No net connection seemed to me like torture since the computer is the only piece of entertainment in my apartment. Well I have a phone and a radio but I’m not a fan of those pieces… hmmmm exactly 2 weeks with no net connection. Almost all offline games were done and I’m running out of anything to keep me company. That’s where the post of going through Internet cafés came and it’s a pain in the bum! Seriously the lousiness of the computers and kept on freezing right in front of me! Even just to access facebook, the stupid device won’t let me hahhaai… to think there were only five people using the computers around 9am.


Ok I admit I was little bit jealous of my brother owning a new phone… and blame me it was a really good phone, sony ericson. Somehow to compete with my so-called nokia 5200, I bought this memory card since my phone was like 3 years without any extension to its memory. My stupid phone kept on hanging when I insert my memory card and started to hang every time I charge my batteries! I felt hopeless and desperate to use my memory card, at least my phone could be useful for once. I took it the repair shop and asked if they could reformat the whole internal memory, but (there’s always a but!) they have to check first if reformatting would be necessary which cost me 200.00php. Oh yeah plus a waiver was being signed in case my phone goes nuts; they are not to blame for it! (and all I want was to reformat sheesh!) I’m really an amateur when it comes to these repairing stuff, so a text came from the repairs indicating that new parts are needed plus labor with a bill of 678.00php waaaah meaning my personal debts is increasing once again! now I’m stuck with my cousin’s phone which is worst since the flex cable is busted! Not only that I can’t see the screen, it has weird sounds that are so gay (its pink and looks like a toy!) Waaaah, at least I could be in touch through calls.


Financially, I’m broke and my mother kept on yapping about the details why my allowance went to the drainage. First she insisted on claiming the passport to someone she know of working on the department so that filing would be faster, which is why I don’t like it since I’m not for once going back to that place filled with people, weird stares and funky smells (except for claiming the passport). And that’s were the rage came in, she kept on talking and talking; blaming me for the drainage allowance, fixing my phone which was still ok (ok for her!), going through gym that is not part of the expenses and doing nothing about the nclex. I know my mother talks a lot but when she raised those issues against me, I was mad, really pissed off and started to cry. And to think I asked for only 678.00php for the phone, and the gym expenses was my savings and allowance (plus the debts from people). Plus I also read those books she gave me for the nclex review and always going through that good for nothing university for the requirements needed, argh! That made me totally shake and now here I am letting my mind set off and go! (including throwing the pink phone unto the mattress with ants!)


To get my day worst, my bed was swarming of red ants! No one was eating on my bed, but those filthy red ants were everywhere! I decided to sleep on the floor and hang my mattress on the roof. Amazed, I carried the mattress all the way to the third floor by myself. Water was scarce suddenly and the pipes were dry, I dunno what other crazy stuff would happen next! I guess that’s what happens to pissed off people, instant strength and more bad luck!


Since I have no net, I’m actually typing through Microsoft word and listening to music (not the pussy ones) that kick ass (double pedals you know!) so if you made this part of my post, congratulations and thank you for somehow wasting your time on me… hahahaha at least I’m feeling better with paramore and static x at the background!