Whinings

Eventually it’s been a month before posting any stuff on my blog…

As for a little update kinda busy with work, not having my laptop at home since the bro harbors it a lot for his review and my days off consist of drinking both alcohol and caffeine that I just slumber to bed when I arrived late.

For starters I just had to change my blog interface, the old one was getting a bit too crowded. Was looking for a cleaner look plus getting those codes are a fuss. For now I like my orange style though, and the monkey offers me a sense of welcome to my page.

And oh yes, the bro didn’t mentioned to me about reformatting the damn laptop, so my precious bookmarks and blog entries that weren’t published yet are gone forever. Now I have to start from scratch to eventually make up some lost data. My pseudo tumblr list is gone that I have to link a new one or more like continue to a new list without cutting it off. Hai life sucks sometimes…

this picture states it all

Typically I’m bored even though I am back to my pace life of busy and party. I guess my age has suggested to look for some ‘newer’ excitement install for me.

I don’t get it why I am this bored na with life in general.

Work is fine so far even if I am now assigned to ICU in a just 4 months of probation; so far so good on the job and taking care of those patients. The only thing I dreaded the most is the spongbath with perineal care kinda of thing. Swiping of other people’s butt is no joke and really gross too. Although the work is ok I do miss sometimes the business of it on the floor, where you can see time flies so fast. Hai like I said life sucks and that it’s life why I entered this kind of career anyway.

with the 5a station staff, kinda miss working with them

went zipline with them at Papakits Danao

lastly, food tripping with them

As for other aspect, I’ll be turning 23 soon and I’m broke out of hell. I also have to work on that day since I forgot to ask for a day off since they make schedules really early. I dunno what to splurge on but my only rule is that I must get up and thank the Big Guy above for me to breathe in this past 23 years. The materialistic stuff could come after though and that I should learn how to save save and save some more.

Still single though, but that part is the least one that I am having trouble with. I just want something weird or exciting to happen. Something that entertains me somehow cause really I’m bored bored bored with my life today.

Reading this entry makes me kinda sad… it sounds like my life is on constant motion to repeating. I must I must post some other stuff besides this… hey this is an update anyway

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Imperfect

Sick of hearing it!
Sick of hearing how fat I am. I get it, I’m big so what? It’s not the end of the world!

what the fucking problem of being fat?! [source]

It’s not your problem why I’m like this…

It’s not your problem why I don’t have a boyfriend…

It’s not your problem why if ever I’ll be dead due to diabetes, heart attack or sort of disease that’s gonna clog up my veins or arteries…

It’s just that I’m sick… completely pissed of hearing these words over and over again for the past years. Since then I just laugh about it, but my bucket of smiles are empty… running out of any patience that I need to wipe out someone…

It’s not your problem that I like eating...

It’s not your problem that I like food so much especially sweets...

It’s not your problem that I usually munch on things when studying...

It’s not your problem that my stomach screams for food once in a while...

Is there any place for some weight on? Is there any problem if I gain a few pounds? So what if I have problems of being overweight now? I get it you don’t have to drill my skull to get to the point.

I’m proud of having this, it’s me, it’s not some crazy person who wants to look good that she ends up starving to death, or have severe stage of ulcers or worse using money just to pamper one self or just to get attention to everyone. That’s plainly aesthetic! I use my brain wisely, I don’t make decisions base on what others tell you too. I don’t give in to their demands and that you should be thankful that I have the thing to control everything I am since I know my limits.

That’s what I hate about society, making up what’s normal! Just because all you see are thin people, I am an eyesore then…

people tend to see what's outside, idiots! [source]

People are different, I have my own uniqueness. Good thing I don’t do drugs just to loose weight. See those actress on tv? Mostly the faces are fake anyway that I don’t know what’s real to them.

I do eat a balance diet, but still girls have these excess package that its kinda hard to pull it off. Exercise? Well I did but since you want to focus my attention to studying that I clearly stop going to the gym and concentrating on sitting. If only I could drill these words to your skull too.

I can handle this, since I am like this since before. I hate it even typing these words makes me want to literally punch you on the face even if we are related.

Imperfect! Plus I don’t want to be controlled. All I want you to do is just relax and let me handle this. Maybe I should use those drugs just to shut the hell out of you.

My posts are becoming lame I know but it’s my medium of release for me

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Ping Me: an Update

This would be just an update to what I’m busy with.

First my eligibility for NCLEX had arrived and that I surely taking a serious mode on the review thingy. So my schedule is tight with watching anime or series and reading mangas still intact. I’m so happy that I am able to reach katekyo hitman reborn’s latest episode. As of the moment, the latest episode is 190. Just 20 episodes to go and that I’m done, pure stream and that veoh player was my alibi on this. As for the mangas, kurushitsuji is so damn slow on the progress but the latest chapter is pretty good.

yes its cracking...
image by morrighan03

As for the other aspect, my brother has its own laptop and my cousin has a new notebook too. That leaves to me the eldest with the old pc. Damn! Just you wait for earnings and I’ll buy my own laptop. Still on bargaining my father not to disconnect our smartbro and to buy a router to have wifi! Inches to make him say yes hahahaha

Fifa is on the corner. The team I’m betting is still alive! Go argentina! I hope you do good on the quarter finals… betting on Gonzalo Higuain to do that stuff! Spain isn’t bad also plus those Germans do know how to play a good game with the crowds wowing!

Back to NCLEX, I’m having trouble with my friend wait frenemy on when to take the NCLEX. I wanted to take it on September, she wanted to take it on August. August is still early for me since I started second week in June to get my studying straight! Plus she’s the one who decided to stop with the review! If only I decided to ditch her, but that would be rude. My brain hurts, wanting to take with her or should I take alone. My mom bets on taking alone just to make sure. Her mother doesn’t allow her to extend, but I already gave up time on for her to decide but taking it early is a very huge risk. Not only that it’s expensive, but a one time take since the California state requires their state’s SSS number. I can’t do that! I’m still sticking September as my target month, I’m just being careful not reckless. The worse part is that the reason she wants an early take is that a hospital already called her and took the exam. I wasn’t even able to pass the requirements because I was afraid that it would clash on my exam date. Plus she’s not even sure if she passed the exam. It’s not my problem, I already told her that possibility but she pursued it anyway. I don’t want to go with her decision since she already made a wrong one before. I answered her that by the end of July she would get an answer from me.

its a love angle not triangle
image by iann7

This isn’t my business but I can’t stand it. Regards to my brother on his new chic he found. You see this chic was the same person my brother’s best friend tried to court. He failed but didn’t give up that yet. As for one thing my brother, his best friend and this chic are classmates so ultimately they would see each other in school. The best friend however kinda let it slide of courting the chic since he always gets busted. I don’t know if my brother asked any permission or had any closure with his best friend but they stop talking after my brother when for that chic. As for that chic, I don’t know. I feel irritated I mean she obviously know that they are super close friends what the hell he said yes to my brother. As for my brother, what on earth was he thinking ditching his long time friend for a girl! Man its like total wreck, another good relationship went down because of that. I have nothing against that chic, it’s that her action made me judge right away that she has a defect or something. Typing about it makes me annoyed but I can’t stand it! My own brother blinded with that! Typically that couple won’t last knowing my brother but then again I don’t about his best friend though. I even told my brother that clearly he’s the wrong guy on this scenario. He just laughed and won’t listen. Fine then go for the hard way.

Feels kinda relief after those paragraphs. As for other updates, I’m still being jailed for debts! When will this horror ends. Stupid stupid me for being suck a weakling on food! July is here and time time time is oh so precious. Procrastinating should stay away! I miss my friends, the close ones and that spending with frenemy is the only choice I got to be able to remind myself the horrible thing if I fail!

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Small Pleasures

Feeling crappy upon waking up, my mind was stuck on a constant thing. stuck. I guess that word would eventually be my partner in crime for the following weeks or maybe months! The horror!

a nice hug from ipin to lambo

My fingers were my saviors for the day typing random stuff on google and yahoo. So this was the result of using your instinct for a change.

Small pleasures while not spending money! what a relief!! ^___^ (original article here) you gotta appreciate the little things which is so true; the bold ones are my usual reasons to smile

1. coloring (yes, grown-ups can do it, too)
2. crisp cotton sheets
3. soft skin
4. old family recipes
5. the first daffodils of spring
6. sleeping in
7. an exercise endorphin high
8. window boxes
9. a perfect cup of coffee
10. a genuine compliment (giving or receiving)
11. the way babies smell
12. a handwritten letter
13. waking up in a good mood...for no real reason
14. singing in the shower
15. finding a couple forgotten dollars in your pocket
16. doing something nice for your neighbor
17. a home cooked meal
18. laughing
19. movie theater popcorn
20. playing hookey
21. a bubble bath
22. swimming
23. an afternoon nap
24. street musicians
25. your favorite song
26. saying thank you
27. helping someone in need
28. old fashioned photo booths
29. fresh whipped cream
30. inspiring blogs
31. a glass of wine
32. rainy afternoons
33. the funny things kids say
34. a novel you can get lost in
35. finding the perfect piece of clothing...on sale
36. clean laundry
37. the wind in your hair
38. treating the person behind you at the drive-thru
39. sharing an umbrella
40. the smell of lavender
41. a long walk that clears your head
42. a bear hug
43. The Beatles
44. smiling at a stranger
45. eating with chopsticks (Chinese food optional)
46. butterflies
47. staying in your pj's all day
48. singing along to the radio and knowing all the words
49. fresh herbs
50. ordering in pizza
51. happy endings...even if they're fictional
52. flying a kite
53. puppies
54. root beer floats
55. holding open the door...
56. ...or having someone hold the door for you
57. fountain soda
58. white, fluffy towels
59. sunshine
60. spending an afternoon at a museum
61. really great advice
62. green lights all the way home
63. the sound of rain hitting the windows
64. sitting in a booth
65. holding hands
66. a great hair day with no effort
67. building a fort with your kids
68. when someone falls asleep with their head on your shoulder
69. fireflies
70. the perfect taco
71. geraniums on a windowsill
72. slow dancing
73. the smell of fresh-baked bread
74. cheesy, uplifting musicals
75. great stories
    
76. the smell of gasoline
77. the cold side of the pillow
78. love letters
79. old friends...
80. ...new friends
81. a pull-through parking space
82. a baguette -- crisp on the outside, airy on the inside
83. when a dog licks your hand
84. sitting at the counter at an old-fashioned diner
85. using your favorite dishes
86. reading your child a bedtime story
87. Girl Scout Cookies
88. flossing
89. kissing someone you love
90. the smell of onions and garlic cooking
91. hot chocolate
92. jumping in puddles
93. old photographs
    
94. birds hopping on the sidewalk
95. Ella Fitzgerald
96. a spoonful of peanut butter straight from the jar
97. your softest t-shirt
98. a new magazine in the mail
99. fireplaces
100. having exact change
101. bacon and pancakes cooking on Saturday morning

***image 1 by Chancake
***image 2 by Dmstei00
***image 3 by GreenifyME

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Wrap it up for May

Clearly only a few days to go and we say hello to May! Wait it is already May!

This month could mean anything, mother’s day to maria clara or the last summer month so gotta get those slacking chase some more!

May can be anything but my attention is on the elections, yep the 2010 national elections. The battle of whirlwind of politics that has been since last year is finally on the finals review. The people be the judge and the players be the candidates and oh yes oh dear this season is so colorful…literally.

which flavor would you prefer?

For 21 years, this is gonna be my first time to vote. So I was a slack on this voting thing since politics is one area, which to me is so messed up. From its presidential position down to the local, still I can’t decide straight which is which to choose from. The only fun thing is that this election, people are so divided. Its like a battle of rainbow with so many opinions being thrown out by one another. It’s seeing a huge courtroom with people wearing colored shirts.

The 3 main national positions, president, vice president and the 12 senators, are the highlights for the said event. With each candidates trying to pull off some silly or crazy stuff just to get attention to people. The problem is if what they’re saying would be put into actions that easily. Filipinos are hardheaded people but still I believe leaders who are using a greater authoritative force would work. We’re like a bunch of babies actually that needs parents who will make us grow.

Another fun side of this election, the talks rather the criticism of each candidates are being dug up from the grave. They’re throwing each other’s with spoiled pies that need to be clean up stat! What the heck it’s a major party so I would say to miley cyrus that Philippine’s party is way better than the US. (PS: I hate that song)

presidential candidates: (UL-R) Aquino, delos Reyes, Madrigal, Villar, Teodoro, Gordon, Estrada, Villaneuva, Perlas

My only concerns are that for the presidential position, some candidates well I strongly disagree on. One is the impeached president. I mean common if he wins this country is so dumb to let us go through another turmoil. Another would be a non contributor to the senate and has famous political parents. Yet how can he rule this country, even he doesn’t know the ways to caring one. Just because he’s always on time to meetings doesn’t mean he would know how to mange a country? Waaah no evidence at all! As for the only woman running for the position, she’s kinda strong but her vision of starting work at homes for the employment problem is kinda hard since resources are usually inadequate and expensive plus I have to admit we Filipinos approved more on imported products than our own.

As for another candidate JC, he believes in abolishing the death penalty, I disagree on this because this country really needs force in order to obey. Although I like his idea of banning public candidates to appear on media like starring in movies or being a news anchor or posting billboards in projects.

For the orange side specifically the wealthiest, he’s vision of all out war against poverty is an interesting topic yet so hard to pull off. For years this country has its share of ups and downs on the middle class but currently is on lower level. Even though he knows the living of the poor since he was one but then I think this country needs really more time for that change to happen and that 6 years is not enough.

Well all are my opinions on the said presidency but then again the people are the ones who have the rights to it…

PS: this post was supposed to be posted before may 10, wth! ^___^ this is what no net connections is all about

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