Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

Work

Finally! My own net connection is back… I have loads of stuff to write about but time is not my buddy anymore. The ironies of being a nurse has succumbed into my life that I hardly post in this blog of mine… I will not be in hiatus mode or anything it’s just that the adjusting period sucks a lot.

It’s been three weeks since I started as this work of mine as a probationary nurse. Its way way different from the orientation phase plus being in charge of a patient’s care is scary but fun at the same time. Scary since you have to deal with not only the patient but on his significance others as well. It’s just that people are different and have different opinions, tempers and smells. As for the co-workers they helped you a lot, although you have to deal with some explaining from them and loads of must-to-dos before you tell your side of the story. Hence I just listen, smile a lot and pretend that you’re ok or else everyone around you will piss you off even further. Fun part would be the stupid little things you had as a beginner (i.e. hots sitz bath chair that forgot to close so water came rushing in when poured)Experience is the best teacher for your skills to develop. The sharpening of these skills is by far needs to be sharpened a bit more. Mostly if the people you work with are cool then work will be cool as well. I did however make new colleagues that were pretty awesome as well. Even if I was freaking out in the middle of the hours (i.e. newly admitted patient who was fine went on cardiac arrest suddenly), I still never failed to have help from them. Others well need to adjust on their attitude since like I said you can’t please everyone.

I would dream to be my job like her but reality has its own surprise. This series is cool to

The only thing that I have to find it annoying was that on the load assignments. It’s like winning on a race track which I sometimes hate coz I let others pick first. And yes respect from seniors also. The station I am somehow belongs to cases with deep internal medicine. Tertiary cases are here and mostly patients have somehow have history of being confine to the hospital. Cardiac arrests are frequent visitors to the station as well.

Summer months are here so basically I am stuck on this four boxed walls alone. My brother had graduated from college so he’s at home and my cousin is on vacation mode. Good thing I still have net connection at home, the net connection which appeared suddenly out of nowhere that we, the less fortunate ones were lucky to leech on it. I seldom go out these days due to work and my mother has become my best friend. I find it quite weird yet ok since she’s a nurse and well she can really relate to the things I’ve been going on. We had these conversations about her first experiences both good and bad. Ironic part of our conversations would be the day she mentioned that she shouldn’t let me became a nurse instead proceed to medicine or have an office kind of work. She should have realized that years ago but this career had grown in me. It’s like learning to love it dunno but being passionate about it yet but I learned to love it during college. I understood somehow the physical and emotional aspect of man plus being able to help others feels kinda good. When you realized that a patient of yours was extubated and was recovered during one of your care. Relieving it is that somehow your care was effective enough.

Sorry if I have been blabbing about work too much on this post, this would be the first and the last since I have no intentions of posting like this on the future. I just need to ventilate somehow to things I’ve been going through. Until then I have to make some posts that are quite interesting to me and to the one who is reading this. ^^


Monday, September 06, 2010

Imperfect

Sick of hearing it!
Sick of hearing how fat I am. I get it, I’m big so what? It’s not the end of the world!

what the fucking problem of being fat?! [source]

It’s not your problem why I’m like this…

It’s not your problem why I don’t have a boyfriend…

It’s not your problem why if ever I’ll be dead due to diabetes, heart attack or sort of disease that’s gonna clog up my veins or arteries…

It’s just that I’m sick… completely pissed of hearing these words over and over again for the past years. Since then I just laugh about it, but my bucket of smiles are empty… running out of any patience that I need to wipe out someone…

It’s not your problem that I like eating...

It’s not your problem that I like food so much especially sweets...

It’s not your problem that I usually munch on things when studying...

It’s not your problem that my stomach screams for food once in a while...

Is there any place for some weight on? Is there any problem if I gain a few pounds? So what if I have problems of being overweight now? I get it you don’t have to drill my skull to get to the point.

I’m proud of having this, it’s me, it’s not some crazy person who wants to look good that she ends up starving to death, or have severe stage of ulcers or worse using money just to pamper one self or just to get attention to everyone. That’s plainly aesthetic! I use my brain wisely, I don’t make decisions base on what others tell you too. I don’t give in to their demands and that you should be thankful that I have the thing to control everything I am since I know my limits.

That’s what I hate about society, making up what’s normal! Just because all you see are thin people, I am an eyesore then…

people tend to see what's outside, idiots! [source]

People are different, I have my own uniqueness. Good thing I don’t do drugs just to loose weight. See those actress on tv? Mostly the faces are fake anyway that I don’t know what’s real to them.

I do eat a balance diet, but still girls have these excess package that its kinda hard to pull it off. Exercise? Well I did but since you want to focus my attention to studying that I clearly stop going to the gym and concentrating on sitting. If only I could drill these words to your skull too.

I can handle this, since I am like this since before. I hate it even typing these words makes me want to literally punch you on the face even if we are related.

Imperfect! Plus I don’t want to be controlled. All I want you to do is just relax and let me handle this. Maybe I should use those drugs just to shut the hell out of you.

My posts are becoming lame I know but it’s my medium of release for me

Monday, September 28, 2009

Dissolving alcohol

One thing I’m sure about facing problems is that alcohol is not a solution! I repeat not a solution… rather it gives you an ugly headache, ulcer like pain on you gastro system and no matter how you put it, the feeling you wish you never had still remains. Even if your in the blackout stage, you will still face reality as an everyday life…. Which is the reason I prefer a glass of saltwater, that way my body would took charge and my mind becomes a nostalgia aka gone mad!

People tend to shift on alcohol during depressant episodes but alcohol is a depressant, makes sense right? No matter how you put it, it just drives you down way down on your bottomless pit…

I’m talking straight from my experience. I do admit there are also some good times shared with people, but using it alone? It’s becoming addicted to it; which is pretty scary to me. I do respect the social bonds or norms that society create over gatherings but please don’t go overboard… unless you’re making a scene which you’ll eventually regret for the rest of your life… amen! Well sometimes society is like the devil, making lame conclusions which sometimes i strongly disagree upon… that’s life a web of unfairness


What’s alcohol for? Mainly for socializing only, not a solution! Believe me, for the past years of witnessing hangovers, my brain almost hits to an explosion! For long-term use, certain health issues rises. Which may have pint-pointed me on regretting some events before, all I could say positively to it? The memories… quite true that those memories were like a freak show but I had fun ^^

As for ways on stopping it, try small steps… gradually secluding you from it… takes a lot of patience and courage. Going instantly cold chicken? Hmmmm it doesn’t work for me automatically!


If you ever spot me again on a drinking frenzy, just remind me of this post! Seriously that way I wouldn’t be eating these words in front of you…
And beer gives my belly a lot of fat! Waaaah

ps: hmmmm i feel very bad about what happened to manila, and the great flood.... its like seeing myself again on what happened to ormoc in 1992... man i still had some flashbacks about water, snakes and swimming on it! waaaaah it was like mad! anaywayz i could only offer prayers since basically i don't have any stuff or the money to give them.... i hope the weather would be very very fine soon...