2 decades and 2 years

I am officially another notch away from my teen years. Really I guess the teen years would be my most memorable ones yet. Never had any ideas on how I handled those dramas, laughs and pains by being me. Everyone has a different version of themselves.

wish I had my actual birthday cake on that day

After 2 decades and 2 years in the business of my life, I only noticed slow changes though. Physically I am the same as ten years ago, mentally I have been a slacker to my own thinking, spiritually low in my practices but have strong faith on the Lord, socially has increased skills in dealing with strangers, and emotionally stable as of now that is. Really I should thank myself for that I have become a person that my parents aren’t a shame of. I do have some secrets that they have no idea with. And yeah I’m still chained to them like a goat, financially.

spending Eat All You Can at Zao, Guadalupe

My parents were kinda generous on my natal day. They had given me a little money to spend on my own. So I decided to treat with my most lovable there is in the mortal world; food. Food has never disappointed me. My cousins thought about the idea so I spend a thousand on that one. Only half a thousand left. That was suppose to be my gift like some pair of shoes perhaps yet the day dragged me on spending it with high school friends. Quite ironic, my original close friends in high school aren’t there anymore but still we do have communication. I kinda want to spend my day again with them if I’m to be honest. Yet time let me introduce more on some of my classmates that ended up having to be with them. These guys are quite ok but nothing can replace the closest ones before. Good for them that they were allowed to be in Cebu just to unwind from work, no way in hell am I allowed that kind of unwinding. So there I have no money left for me and they were kinda eager on having this small time reunion, so I wasn’t regretting it.

at Brew's Point and Diva Karaoke

On the same day, bad news went around with my roommates. My cousin got her phone stolen on the jeepney. I was having a hard time mentally accepting it since the moment she told me through a call I thought she was laughing. Yeah I was a meany but really I don’t know how to handle some situations like that, hate being the eldest though. The shit part would be a pain for her. Telling her mom wasn’t an easy task since they have their own issues too. Really I want to butt in and defend on her since her mom is pressing her too hard. Seeing her talking to her mom on the phone and then hang up is kind of a way that she’s punishing her child unfairly. Hearing stuff that she would be transferred to another school or returning home because she broke her trust. I don’t get it, she should be thankful that her daughter is ok. Just for one lousy accident, she said some things about that. Really my cousin is not even like me, the one who tells lies on my parents sometimes just to get on my way! She’s a better child with that. I have no idea how my grandmother raised her children but that is just plain awful. Her mom should consider that her child is on the process of learning like that. Yes these words are one sided and I have no idea on what the other party have reasons with. I just want to defend a person who is not guilty about. Plus her mom and my dad are somehow similar but my mom is the one who balances stuff like that on the four of us.

My day turned out fun and with a lesson. Clearly I have 2 pending events that I should spend with people I love. The financial problem would be a pain but it would be worth it.

One thing that amused me earlier on my birthday was that someone greeted me unexpectedly. For years he never greeted me and that goes for me to him as well. It’s no biggy but kinda surprising.

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Knocking on Mr. Brain: Chapter 2

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Random thought 4: Anxiety
Stress beckons to our world that leads to fear
Fear of the unknown, yet mild anxiety is healthy
Just don’t loose yourself
It’s ugly when you are out of control

Random thought 5: Facebook
Waiting until my food are all ready to be serve
What if life is simple like that, waiting for things to poof
That world would be like heaven
No worries just waiting for something…
Heaven? I guess facebook doesn’t exist in that world
Since man created it, likely it would be rejected during the main entrance
Unlike Olympus, that way Zeus would be updated

Random thought 6: Floating
Whenever I hear the soundtracks from Pride and Prejudice and Hana Kimi
I get the feeling of wanting to be with those clouds again
The ones were pinned on the blue sky
Thinking about it made me remember the times when stuck in a boat trip
I prefer to seat near the windows, where the clouds perform
Underneath those blue sky is where I would like to be
But it end up falling anyway, to a person unworthy

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Ping Me: an Update

This would be just an update to what I’m busy with.

First my eligibility for NCLEX had arrived and that I surely taking a serious mode on the review thingy. So my schedule is tight with watching anime or series and reading mangas still intact. I’m so happy that I am able to reach katekyo hitman reborn’s latest episode. As of the moment, the latest episode is 190. Just 20 episodes to go and that I’m done, pure stream and that veoh player was my alibi on this. As for the mangas, kurushitsuji is so damn slow on the progress but the latest chapter is pretty good.

yes its cracking...
image by morrighan03

As for the other aspect, my brother has its own laptop and my cousin has a new notebook too. That leaves to me the eldest with the old pc. Damn! Just you wait for earnings and I’ll buy my own laptop. Still on bargaining my father not to disconnect our smartbro and to buy a router to have wifi! Inches to make him say yes hahahaha

Fifa is on the corner. The team I’m betting is still alive! Go argentina! I hope you do good on the quarter finals… betting on Gonzalo Higuain to do that stuff! Spain isn’t bad also plus those Germans do know how to play a good game with the crowds wowing!

Back to NCLEX, I’m having trouble with my friend wait frenemy on when to take the NCLEX. I wanted to take it on September, she wanted to take it on August. August is still early for me since I started second week in June to get my studying straight! Plus she’s the one who decided to stop with the review! If only I decided to ditch her, but that would be rude. My brain hurts, wanting to take with her or should I take alone. My mom bets on taking alone just to make sure. Her mother doesn’t allow her to extend, but I already gave up time on for her to decide but taking it early is a very huge risk. Not only that it’s expensive, but a one time take since the California state requires their state’s SSS number. I can’t do that! I’m still sticking September as my target month, I’m just being careful not reckless. The worse part is that the reason she wants an early take is that a hospital already called her and took the exam. I wasn’t even able to pass the requirements because I was afraid that it would clash on my exam date. Plus she’s not even sure if she passed the exam. It’s not my problem, I already told her that possibility but she pursued it anyway. I don’t want to go with her decision since she already made a wrong one before. I answered her that by the end of July she would get an answer from me.

its a love angle not triangle
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This isn’t my business but I can’t stand it. Regards to my brother on his new chic he found. You see this chic was the same person my brother’s best friend tried to court. He failed but didn’t give up that yet. As for one thing my brother, his best friend and this chic are classmates so ultimately they would see each other in school. The best friend however kinda let it slide of courting the chic since he always gets busted. I don’t know if my brother asked any permission or had any closure with his best friend but they stop talking after my brother when for that chic. As for that chic, I don’t know. I feel irritated I mean she obviously know that they are super close friends what the hell he said yes to my brother. As for my brother, what on earth was he thinking ditching his long time friend for a girl! Man its like total wreck, another good relationship went down because of that. I have nothing against that chic, it’s that her action made me judge right away that she has a defect or something. Typing about it makes me annoyed but I can’t stand it! My own brother blinded with that! Typically that couple won’t last knowing my brother but then again I don’t about his best friend though. I even told my brother that clearly he’s the wrong guy on this scenario. He just laughed and won’t listen. Fine then go for the hard way.

Feels kinda relief after those paragraphs. As for other updates, I’m still being jailed for debts! When will this horror ends. Stupid stupid me for being suck a weakling on food! July is here and time time time is oh so precious. Procrastinating should stay away! I miss my friends, the close ones and that spending with frenemy is the only choice I got to be able to remind myself the horrible thing if I fail!

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Wedding anyone?

Half of the year has arrived and still I have no job nor took the NCLEX exam for once. Rainy months with school gates opening give back memories down when I was so excited to have my very cool pencil box and lunch money! Back then it was so simple that all I have to do is ace some exams so that parents would be proud of me… ok ok I have to admit I like to be praised a lot with what I accomplished. Hence I was kinda of a bookworm during elementary and high school days. College changed my vision drastically. Its more like what you want what you do what you get sort of persona. Independence. Oh yes I still love to be praised but my basic instincts on adjusting with people took that away eventually led me to a persona that watches people a lot, from different angles I guess. Now here I am typing this as a person who likes to see people go up, down and down some more.

Missing school? Hell no! It’s the people I guess… never actually pictured out that someday I would actually share these stuffs to a simple site; plus who would waste their time reading on this. A year passed, so what now? For some few friends of mine, they have the job, passed the exam or better yet married.

Intimacy vs. isolation as what Erik Erickson mentioned on the social developmental task of a human being, the young adult.

Physically mature but emotionally flat and spiritually evil. Those words suit me very nicely. For the social aspect? I’ll get to you in that…in due time.

Weddings have been an astonishing fantasy of every girl since childhood (bride wars movie), hmm not to me that is. Yet, in our section in college we have the most number of people married already. Reasons? Unwanted pregnancy? Could be but lets rephrase it to unplanned pregnancy. How about love?? Maybe. Every time I asked a newlywed, they would answered they were sure of the decision and not at least regretted about it. Not quit answering my question. I’m not totally convinced but seeing them tying the knots could be a thrilling more like nerve-racking experience for them. Plus I always check the in-laws reactions of during the whole ceremony thing, that’s the best part of having this early marriages stuff. The in-laws usually give the clear meanings to the wedding.

Yes I have my own life but like I said I enjoy watching people going up, down and down some more. Not saying that marrying early is so bad, it’s that some are going there where I’m here stuck. Stuck on keeping company to myself.

As of now I have clearly no plans of having kids or whatsoever, remember the word independence. This term has been engraved on my skull that my priorities is to get a really nice en route to my life towards traveling and repaying people that I love.

Ok ok I’ll explain my so-called dream wedding even if it’s not really ideal as of the moment. I’m just thinking of stuff to write but hey it’s June and I’m giving the mic to my ego for a change:


Ø I like to have both church and civil weddings
Ø Must be on an autumn month
Ø I like the idea of an autumn themed wedding complete with the maple leaves
Ø Single bridesmaids & groomsmen would be a plus sign
Ø Ceremony on the beach wait make it a park since its autumn themed
Ø No idea who my maid of honor would be
Ø Reception? No idea but the food must be great maybe a 4-5 coursed meal
Ø Cake? I dunno just not white and boring
Ø High school and college with relatives should be there
Ø The color rust and gold would be great
Ø Would be a day that it’s the happiest

Mainly that’s it… and for the record, I predict that none would be in my so called lists hahhahaha anyways I’m introducing some friends of mine who tied the knot earlier this year.

(1) Juzzy with hubby Micheal (2)Clauds with main squeeze Mckoy

(3) Harvey with Jkae (4) Xiang with hubby Janjan

(4) Marie with herman Duke (5) my teacher Diana with husband Earl

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Small Pleasures

Feeling crappy upon waking up, my mind was stuck on a constant thing. stuck. I guess that word would eventually be my partner in crime for the following weeks or maybe months! The horror!

a nice hug from ipin to lambo

My fingers were my saviors for the day typing random stuff on google and yahoo. So this was the result of using your instinct for a change.

Small pleasures while not spending money! what a relief!! ^___^ (original article here) you gotta appreciate the little things which is so true; the bold ones are my usual reasons to smile

1. coloring (yes, grown-ups can do it, too)
2. crisp cotton sheets
3. soft skin
4. old family recipes
5. the first daffodils of spring
6. sleeping in
7. an exercise endorphin high
8. window boxes
9. a perfect cup of coffee
10. a genuine compliment (giving or receiving)
11. the way babies smell
12. a handwritten letter
13. waking up in a good mood...for no real reason
14. singing in the shower
15. finding a couple forgotten dollars in your pocket
16. doing something nice for your neighbor
17. a home cooked meal
18. laughing
19. movie theater popcorn
20. playing hookey
21. a bubble bath
22. swimming
23. an afternoon nap
24. street musicians
25. your favorite song
26. saying thank you
27. helping someone in need
28. old fashioned photo booths
29. fresh whipped cream
30. inspiring blogs
31. a glass of wine
32. rainy afternoons
33. the funny things kids say
34. a novel you can get lost in
35. finding the perfect piece of clothing...on sale
36. clean laundry
37. the wind in your hair
38. treating the person behind you at the drive-thru
39. sharing an umbrella
40. the smell of lavender
41. a long walk that clears your head
42. a bear hug
43. The Beatles
44. smiling at a stranger
45. eating with chopsticks (Chinese food optional)
46. butterflies
47. staying in your pj's all day
48. singing along to the radio and knowing all the words
49. fresh herbs
50. ordering in pizza
51. happy endings...even if they're fictional
52. flying a kite
53. puppies
54. root beer floats
55. holding open the door...
56. ...or having someone hold the door for you
57. fountain soda
58. white, fluffy towels
59. sunshine
60. spending an afternoon at a museum
61. really great advice
62. green lights all the way home
63. the sound of rain hitting the windows
64. sitting in a booth
65. holding hands
66. a great hair day with no effort
67. building a fort with your kids
68. when someone falls asleep with their head on your shoulder
69. fireflies
70. the perfect taco
71. geraniums on a windowsill
72. slow dancing
73. the smell of fresh-baked bread
74. cheesy, uplifting musicals
75. great stories
    
76. the smell of gasoline
77. the cold side of the pillow
78. love letters
79. old friends...
80. ...new friends
81. a pull-through parking space
82. a baguette -- crisp on the outside, airy on the inside
83. when a dog licks your hand
84. sitting at the counter at an old-fashioned diner
85. using your favorite dishes
86. reading your child a bedtime story
87. Girl Scout Cookies
88. flossing
89. kissing someone you love
90. the smell of onions and garlic cooking
91. hot chocolate
92. jumping in puddles
93. old photographs
    
94. birds hopping on the sidewalk
95. Ella Fitzgerald
96. a spoonful of peanut butter straight from the jar
97. your softest t-shirt
98. a new magazine in the mail
99. fireplaces
100. having exact change
101. bacon and pancakes cooking on Saturday morning

***image 1 by Chancake
***image 2 by Dmstei00
***image 3 by GreenifyME

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Cakes or Ice Creams?

Naturally, my food passion is adopted from my father. Mostly we have the same tastes or more like cravings in life. Yes he has a sweet tooth as well but his vulnerability to having DM is getting bigger and bigger. As for me, the goal of “must taste all before” is on my system and I’ll regret in joining my father to that path later!

So I was thinking, cakes and ice creams are usually the best treats to find. Both are sweet, easy to buy or make and available everywhere! The question is, which do you really prefer? It’s a food fight!

Round 1: The Process

Both have delicate ingredients but the processes are quite different. For ice creams, you might need a machine that blends and cools the ingredients together. Still you can make ice cream at home without the machine but the process is kinda picky like checking your ice cream mixture every hour and mashing it again before putting back in the freezer. Good ice cream comes with air content. But once done perfectly, good and smooth ice cream is born!

Cakes too have a simpler process using cakes mixes that are readily available on stores. As for the traditional ones, you need to have a lot of flour and baking soda. As for the icing, you need to whip a lot of egg whites to it! In baking you need more ingredients and time for it, but once done the hard work won’t be that bad.

white fruit cake by migi; sushi cake by nekoshiei

Round 2: The Presentation

Both have unique ways on presenting. Cakes can be served with icing, leche flan or plain , on a plate, in little boxes or plastic ones and you can do almost anything to it since it doesn’t melt easily. Ice creams always served chilled! Can be put in cones, cups or gallons and put a lot of things to decorate with like sprinkles, wafer sticks and marshmallows. The downside is that it’s contraindicating to environmental temperatures.

Ironically, both can be served at the same time. Good examples are the warm brownies with ice cream on top. I mean its soooo good to look at that somehow I kinda don’t have the guts on ruining it. But what the heck its good really good with the warmness of the cake and the coolness of the ice cream together in one setting!

Round 3: The Partners

Each food has its own complementary to bring about another level of tastiness!

Cakes are best partnered with tea or coffee for me. I usually don’t like it with soft drinks, milk or another over sweeten beverage since I want the taste of the cake to be there not mixing with the beverage. Water is fine, dunno with wines since I never tried one. Cakes and beers are a no no, they’ll give a combination that is heavy to the stomach and the beer’s bitter taste overshadows the sweetness of the cake.

cake and ice cream by chef garbo; chocolate cake on vanilla by captain jack's restau

Ice creams are great partners with cookies, muffins, pies and softdrinks. I really like to have the taste of warm and cool in my mouth that’s why a chocolate pie goes very well with vanilla ice cream. Not a fan of ice cream with softdrinks though, but people are digging it.

There are some cakes that have an ice cream center to it; as for me I still prefer a cake with warm fudge inside!

Round 4: The Price

It depends on two things actually: if purchased, the place you bought it and if home made, the ingredients and utensils being used.

Both can reach a very high cost especially the ones came from abroad. But when it comes to locality, ice cream has the advantage since the ‘dirty ice cream’ is a hit on the streets.

carrot ice cream by gleen koenig; gelatto in rome

Round 5: The Freshness Period

Expiration dates exists mostly on food and it isn’t an exception to these delights.

Cakes however have more vulnerability to becoming stale. It needs to be covered to prevent moisture from escaping or to be consumed within a few days to prevent it from becoming spoiled. The freezer is a good place to slowing the process and cakes have more perishable ingredients than ice cream.

As for ice cream, having its cold temperature has its advantage. It can sit longer than cakes. Old ice cream can be recognize by having crystals forming on the mixture and has less flavor.

Winner!

For me! Ice cream is the winner. I guess my cravings for something cool has its advantage. Plus it has unique partners to go with it. Ahhhhh my sweet tooth never fails to judge my preferences. I have to admit I am also a cake fanatic but ice creams are creamier!

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